#orchiectomy

Damn, testosterone was extremely powerful BTW. Fuck the gender/sex, just focus on science part. It's like shell premium fuel. Testosterone makes you ugly but shit is insane. I remember at age 18, I raced with my friends while running and I passed all of them, and they were even shocked how come I was too fast. (That amount of strength was normal to me so I ignored it, mostly my female classmates told me this.) I was able to do push-ups non-stop for 50 times. I was doing pull-ups 20 times non-stop sometimes even more. Damn, right now I'm on HRT for 3,5 years and also post-orchi for 1,5 month and whenever I remember these times, I'm being like "wow I was seriously insanely strong" like running or other stuff beside, going for a walk even hurts my legs now. I'm also depressed all the time, and I rarely go outside so this is also a factor but still... I had to transition because dysphoria was killing me but switching from T to E+P is an obvious biological downgrade. I'm jealous of cis men. OTOH, I wasn't even able to read a sentence when I was on T. Now I can read paragraphs without getting bored. Mental benefits of E > physical advantages of T #trans #transgender #transsexual #TS #transjoy #HRT #orchiectomy

I wish I had an orchiectomy earlier. Anti-androgens fucked me sideways, and I am just realizing this after stopping them. Bicalutamide was even horrible even though it was better than others. I feel bad for trans kids who are not allowed to have orchiectomy... Your thighs get wider with HRT, and this will cause discomfort if you have testicles. This will also affect the way you're walking which means you will get clocked. I didn't even need painkillers at all like I took them on the first day only. I am mentally fucked already, and I think anti androgens made them worse. I wish I was nicer to people though idk feeling sad now... #orchiectomy #trans #transgender #transsexual #TS #transjoy #bicalutamide #HRT