Bubotomy

I often choose familiar misery over unfamiliar joy.

I got nothing to say right now. Just tired.

I've been diagnosed with:

- Spina bifida occulta
- Severe degenerative disc disease
- Congenital L5 pars interarticularis defects
- Grade 1 L5-S1 anterior listhesis

#TodayILearned the pipe in the term "pipe dream" refers to an opium pipe. I don't know why I never made that connection.

Random thing I don't like: the concept of generations. Humans aren't born in monolithic blocks. We're born continuously & live differently. People from the same generation have completely different beliefs & experiences yet we all get shoehorned into a group that someone made up.

What do you do if you're unhappy but you have no idea what, if anything would make you happy?

I'm not sure if I enjoy anything or if I just do things to fill time and act as if that's "enjoyment."

I could use a good wander in a foggy forest.

Need.

#Music Song of the day:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LQ1JYfVHrBM

Today I learned author Roald Dahl was buried with a box of chocolates, a bottle of wine, a bunch of pencils, and, for some reason...a power saw.

WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME THIS EXISTS?!?!?!?!?!?????!?!

https://store.steampowered.com/app/2023050/Lighthouse_Keeper/

I don't like anything spicier than black pepper but I do like black pepper a lot.

This waterfall in Indonesia is pretty.

Nobody understands how bad my back pain is, even after telling them a thousand times.

I find a cool picture of a lighthouse: 😃

I realize it's AI generated: 😭

#Music Song of the day:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fq_z54ym3m4

I feel guilty for allowing people to care about me.

TIL MS-13 was founded in Los Angeles, CA and was entirely a US-based gang until many of its members were deported to Central America in the 90s where it spread widely.

"Better to suffer injustice than to do it."

A Hidden Life (2019) is a movie that might turn off a lot of people with its length and pacing, but I found it stunningly beautiful and powerful.

Sometimes it's like I have a giant void in my head where the feelings should be.

Adorable.

#Music Song of the day:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tu3ypuKq8WE

Wish we could get rid of this idea that being too tired to do something is a failure. Fatigue is your body saying you NEED rest.

I love this song more than I can describe.

#Music Song of the day:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aWmkuH1k7uA

I'm going outside today, if I don't come back avenge my death. 🫡

I just want to RELAX, you know? Just have some peace and quiet.

#Music song of the day:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJ_kOwFdqrk

The world and most of the people in it confuse me so deeply.

Got a doctor appointment next week. Mentally preparing for it. Also making a list of things to talk to them about in case my brain decides not to come with me, as it often does.

TIL they make lighthouses for pools, how cute is that?

#Music Song of the day:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zsCD5XCu6CM

I had a dream about Trump being arrested and crying as he was dragged to jail then I woke up and remembered it wasn't real.

Raccoon content should be called raccoontent.