Viktoria (They/She)

So I saw a post on this girl having trouble with her bf and it reminded me of me. I (19NB) am having trouble with my girlfriend Nichole (18F). I dated her a while ago but had trouble with my ex who I still thought about I believe, so I stopped liking her. Now we are together but with problems because apparently I’m in the wrong for wanting to call my best friend and see what he’s up to

I would consider my old crush, Karl, to be a Bible Benny, just a bit. He was pretty religious and came from a religious Christian family and had a lot of internalized homophobia. Though he dated a dude and called men and women alike (jokingly) “hubby” or “wifey” and smacked their ass, he was still convinced he was straight or at least “turned straight”, as he would say. He was very ashamed to have been dating this dude, acted like he didn’t have feelings for him apparently, and acted like it never happened. Even though I had feelings for him, I don’t think it ever would’ve happened because I was a boy back then and that’s how Karl saw me. Plus, his internalized feelings.