Severely depressed Melody

Oh right, that was why I can't go with bra only in public. My body hair is still very visible even if perfectly shaved

Am tired. Not the sleep kind of tired though, the why do I keep getting hit with awful things kind of tired

Lets see if I can get the energy together to go through a full ipl session

Can't believe I'm actually pro Jens Spahn for just this once

oh right, gpn is soon. time to once again stay as far away from it as possible (pretty difficult considering my workplace is directly next to the area) because it feels like I'd be completely out of place and like a bad imitation no one wants around.
same reasons why I will also most likely keep my distance from csd karlsruhe unless I get an explicit invitation or a request for my presence.

Funny how events for queers being loud and proud and themselves only make me feel even more invisible and excluded

Look, I know that some of you want me gone. Well, actually, "some" is a bit of an understatement, when that's the vibe I've been getting from everyone with the number of exceptions (including my direct, biological family) being countable on one, maybe two hands.
But sadly for you, I'm still standing. It may hurt a lot, but I'm. Still. Standing. And unlike you, I'm actually improving as a person.

And now for some more accusations, if the previous one wasn't enough. I'm not going to give names, but you'll know who you are.

First claiming that you've got no one to talk to or that no one is replying, then not reacting at all when someone, who you claim to be your friend, is actively showing that they're around and available for chatting? At least one of those statements must be false then. Either someone else replied, you don't actually want anyone to chat with you or that person's not your friend. Considering context, the last one is far more likely.

Or how about being trusted enough to be getting told about a possible trauma, only to then turn around and use that exact thing against them? Really not fun, you almost killed me. Literally.

Or finally, all the claims of "oh, but I do care about you", only to then consequently ignore all cries for help. Actions speak louder than words, and your actions were rather clear in intent.

I thought that we, as a community of queer and neurospicy beings, were supposed to stick together, help and uplift each other and be there when one of us struggles. But I guess I've been proven wrong. My trust in you has been misplaced and now it's gone forever.


Melody, out

It was fun while it lasted

Question: Currently thinking about caching for Linstrom. Difficult because I prefer to keep the number of external dependencies (as in external applications or dynamic libraries) as low as possible

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coming back alive for one question:
Any recommendations for a self-hosted mail server? Maybe with web-ui, but not necessary

Thinking about deleting all my fedi accounts. No use keeping them when it's just instantly forgotten anyways

This account is nuts effectively shut down

​:neocat_up:​ still need to go grocery shopping and make something to eat

fedi, question: Passkey registration happens in two stages. You request a challenge, then send back the response. The server needs to track this somehow. The challenge does not contain anything that I could use to tie the challenge and response together. You get a session and options from the call to start the registration on the server side.
Is there any scenario in which you can hand the session over to the client and still be certain that, on response to the challenge, you got the original session? Would it be easier to simply throw the session into the server's database and fetch it again later?

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Think I'll just call an indefinite timeout on Linstrom. Again. 3rd time now I think.

I just can't anymore