Schizophrenia and Synchronicity

2026-04-30 20:16 UTC

cross-posted from: lemmy.world/post/46260505 Schizophrenia is like a big box where a lotta different things people experience that we don’t fully understand are put, and also some types of liars. I’m diagnosed schizoaffective, and it is disorienting, the schizo aspects of that, which are only further enhanced by the bipolar aspects I experience; emotional dysregulation + psychosis = nightmare patient to doctors. And I was! But then I did a bunch of spiritual work thanks to psychedelics (to clarify, the drugs helped me see what I needed to do and then I did it consistently over years), and I’ve become, perhaps not a model patient, but I am not a concern like I used to be. Still, I slip up. I got a $2.33 thing of Fireball and 150mg of Benadryl last night; the latter being an awful cross-addiction because stimfapping that will give you ED. Had my jollies and felt remorse this morning, mostly around wasting time and money that can be better spent for my life partner’s needs AND wants. But I forgive myself as God forgives me as I know is best, and I go do some errands this morning. I finish buying a gift for my life partner and I tell the one woman, “have a good one” on the way out. While biking back, a man passed me on a scooter and said in the same tone and cadence, “have a good one,” as I did. This is a form of synchronicity, which I highly recommend you read what Carl Jung has to say on the phenomena. But, the basics of this one involved my awareness that nothing is random and that God sends messages this way, so in the context of sinning last night, this took on the message, “We’re watching you.” And I proceed on, and when I’m finished, I go to get another thing of Fireball. As I walk into the Quiktrip, the cashier was talking with a customer and said something that made the customer reply, “Vic,” which is my name, and immediately afterwards, seemingly unrelated, one girl in the store said to her friend, “Here!” Obviously, this is the decentralized autonomous organization of secret police letting me know that the FBI is watching my GPS data to know what I’m doing. Now, that’s facetious, but I do think these things, having built an understanding of the higher reality of the simulation we do not occupy but rather ARE from delusions, which at face value may seem inherently flimsy, but really, it’s like how our eyes give us depth perception; the stereoscopy of having seen the world through multiple different frameworks begets an intuitive depth perception from understanding deeper truths. And the FBI ABSOLUTELY is tracking me, for self-evident reasons (I mean, I have a sex cult ffs, and that’s one of the tamer things about me), and there ABSOLUTELY is some coordination in regards to how people witness you and talk and then act autonomously to try to improve you, which sometimes is folly, but the point I’m making is how synchronicity made me freely associate meaning from random stimuli, and this led to me setting a better intention than I otherwise would have, regardless of objective causality. And I can go into great depth in describing how each of our personal reality tunnels is procedurally generated based on how you set your intention as each of us monads are woven between parallel instances of reality to facilitate Karma, but that is above my paygrade at the moment, so I’ll continue with saying that I have cured the paranoia in me. Now, all there is, is pronoia, which is when the universe is conspiring in your favor, and the way I did it involved fixing all that sin in me that made me scared the other shoe was going to drop at any moment. It just might, too! But I don’t worry about this stuff because I did the spiritual work to heal, which I only knew the right thing to do because I listened to the whispers of God, which led to my Knowledge that lets me properly interpret Karma/synchronicities, and the trick is that Satan speaks in the same voice as God, so you have to put your heart over your head, and certainly over the serpent, to be able to navigate the labyrinth you are not IN, but ARE.

Replies (14)

@lime@feddit.nu 2026-04-30 22:29

one of by favourite puzzle game series of all time. excepting the graphics it has stood the test of time beautifully.

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@HeroicBillyBishop@lemmy.ca 2026-05-01 08:42

…and seek the mandela

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@BigBrownDog@lemmy.world 2026-04-30 20:54

Myst. Yeah, I Myst the fucking point of this fucking game, dog. I ain’t reading all that other cuckoo-nanny shit though.

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@Shindo66@lemmy.world 2026-05-01 02:13

What the hell did i just read…

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@CultLeader4Hire@lemmy.world 2026-05-01 13:07

The original post seems to have zero self awareness

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@BaraCoded@literature.cafe 2026-05-01 13:13

This post is obviously written by a person in need of professionnal help. Please seek medical counsel. Unchecked schizophrenia not only makes OP’s life harder, it also makes the life of people around OP harder, and sometimes downright tragic. It doesn’t have to be this way. Also, stay away from the internet when you think you’re seeing signs and synchronicities. Sometimes, things just happen and there’s no hidden pattern or whatever secret messages, it’s your mind that takes random stuff and decides to give it some form of meaning. My mother was schizophrenic, one of my brother too, and both destroyed my life. Wake up and seek medical help.

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@mastertigurius@lemmy.world 2026-04-30 21:35

Really tried to love this game, but the play time relies solely on the player being forced to randomly try every conceivable combination in those insanely cryptic puzzles. I have things to do, I wish I had the time to fiddle with this, but I don't.

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@UnrepententProcrastinator@lemmy.ca 2026-05-01 14:29

Are we witnessing someone living his schizophrenia on lemmy right now? I'm sad now 🥺 but how can a stranger on the web help another stranger to stop scratching an itch in their brain. Hope you snap out of it and get help OP.

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@dalekcaan@feddit.nl 2026-04-30 22:39

Oh man, I love Myst. The surreal music and graphics really tickled my brain as a kid.

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@Soulphite@reddthat.com 2026-04-30 20:27

Yep.

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@rumba@lemmy.zip 2026-05-01 18:08

Banned from shitpost... damn *looks up the modlog* oh jesus... yeah, I can see that

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@PolarKraken@lemmy.dbzer0.com 2026-05-01 17:46

Eh, I understand what you're saying even if others mostly seemed to just enjoy pointing out things you already pointed out about yourself (but done dismissively and unkindly in their case). I think you're saying that you believe the universe responds to our deepest intentions, creating a path for us that is shaped in some way by our intent. And that you found a way for yourself to take the same exact stimuli (outside world + internal thoughts), and use them beneficially by viewing them through the lens of a universe directing you in fruitful and positive ways, instead of how those things once felt like they were pushing you in more destructive or unpleasant ways. And then finding observations that your approach truly is better, and is working for you, and wanting to share those. Doesn't sound crazy to me. Spiritually vivid and presenting a lot of unverifiable ideas as self-evident facts, sure, which is part of what's setting folks off, but I mean. None of us *actually* know what any of this is or how it works, your POV doesn't strike me as crazy or ridiculous. I am not a very spiritual person, preferring concrete evidence and fundamentally doubting claims that can't be empirically verified. But with that said, we obviously don't know everything. Electromagnetism was the stuff of ghosts and demons until we learned (quite recently) to measure and understand it. No reason I can find to assume we've hit the end of those big discoveries, certainly not with gaping holes in our understanding of physics. Glad your approach and view on the world seems to be granting you peace. Edit: I imagine you'll want to correct my phrasing of your thinking, that's fine of course. Was mostly trying to simplify for other readers, apologies if it doesn't represent you as well as I thought.

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@wetsoggybread@lemmy.world 2026-04-30 23:39

I played it on Xbox and it took me like 4 hours to beat granted I was in my 20s at the time but maybe they changed some puzzles around? It wasn't that hard to figure out the puzzles and I enjoyed them. I think I spent the most time on that ship level

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@Impractical_Island@lemmy.world 2026-05-01 02:10

My mom's dead, so she reads everything I write. Doncha just hate AIDS? Fucked my life up as much as an enraged narcissistic father can. Oh wait...

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