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@PixysJourney@beige.party · Aug 02, 2026

#Journal of a Dutch AuDHD Pixy

(Sunday, 02/08/2026). I had a bit of a mixed night. My back wasn’t too pleased, the short working meds kept bugging out, making it very painful to try and get up from bed. There was a dog that needed a potty break at times. There was a buzzing terrorist that woke me up once too… Ah well, I guess it’s just how things are these days… How they have been for a while now. And while I still hope that things will get better soon, I feel like I have been waiting for that soon to come for quite some time now. But, when I woke up again, my back was bad, Koa wanted out of the crate, so I just got up and started my “day”. I got to the scale, which was less bad than I had thought it would be. It’s not good, nope, but it was less bad than I thought… I got dressed, took my meds, fixed Koa’s meal. When Koa finished, we got to the couch. I grabbed my laptop, and I wrote an email to my sweet friend. When I sent it, I fixed some brekkie. I took Koa out for a short walk, and then I started writing my journal toot. I wrote it on my phone, and when I was done, uploaded it to some of the usual bits. I watched telly while I edited some of the screengrabs that I had taken from Saturday’s video. I tried to relax for a bit, took Koa on several short walks, and I spent some time reading my book. I felt tired, and I also felt like I should do something today, achieve something today. Even if it would not make me feel as good as it normally would, it would still mean that something got done. And later on, maybe I could feel good about it then. But, what could I do that would make me feel better? In the end, I went to shower. Unfortunately, Koa was barking a few times while I was in it. It really worries me that he barks so quickly and easily. I want to start at the gym soon again, and I’m afraid that he will bark way too much while I am away. And since I visit the gym during the night… Ugh… After the shower, I was tired and I wanted to relax a bit. Unfortunately, Koa kept bugging me, and we had to go out again. So, we went for a short walk, and then I really needed to relax. I tried to read some more, and I fixed some food for both Koa and myself. I managed to relax for a while, and then Koa and I went to the garden, where I cleaned the grass again. Sorry, no video this time… Koa and I went for another short walk. And then, I got the crazy idea to try out the treadmill. In the end, I managed to walk for half an hour at 4 km/h. Not that fast, but considering all that’s happened lately, it wasn’t too bad at all. I started watching the new Devil Wears Prada movie, which I finished after the walk on the mill. After some relaxing, I took Koa for another short walk. We spent some time on the couch with some telly. Koa wanted to go into the garden, but if I leave him in there alone, I won’t have any grass left haha. I got the silly idea to get some of the left-over grass, and I took it to the front garden. With some efforts, I managed to get a bit of it cut, and pinned on the black root fabric. It wasn’t great, but it was a lot better than before. But my hands, they hated me, and the last part would have to wait a bit longer. As the weather wasn’t too bad, I got my garden chair out, and I read for a while, while Koa could have fun in the garden. When my back got too sore, and I got too hot in the sun, I put away the chair, and I got ready to head to bed. I watched a series on my tablet for a while, and when my meds started to help, I grabbed my Kobo, and fell asleep while reading. I woke up for the loo, and to let Koa out. And then I snoozed again, until my back hurt too much, when the meds wore out. I took new meds, and got back to bed. I woke up again when Koa told me it was time to get out of the crate, and to do a wee in the garden. So, we got up and we started our “day”. Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life"

I really appreciate it

as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days!

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Cynni Pixy @PixysSnaps@pixelfed.social · Jul 28, 2026

A lucky shot of Koa, who was running around crazy, enjoying the new grass in the back garden, with his new ball (before he punctured it... 😂). #Labrador #DogsOfMastodon #Dog #DogsOfPixelfed #Labradorable #Puppy #PixelfedDogs #KoaKoolani #Edited #Pixlr

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@PixysJourney@beige.party · Jul 27, 2026

#Journal of a very sore, but also excited, Dutch AuDHD Pixy

(Monday, 27/07/2026). I didn’t have a very bad night, but I woke up a little earlier than I had hoped, and my back and bowels told me that it was time to get up, so… I did just that. The scale wasn’t as bad as I had thought it would be, and I got dressed. I fixed Koa’s meal, and took my meds. Then, we headed to the couch, where I started on my email to my sweet friend. When I was done, I fixed some brekkie, and I started on my journal toot. After brekkie was finished, I put away the laptop, and got ready for a walk with Koa. We walked the little longer SniffiVerse™ walkies again, a little over 2km, and Koa did great. When we got back, I hoped that Koa would be tired enough to snooze some, but his teefs were still bothering him, so I gave him a frozen banana lickimat. After that, he settled down for a while, and I was able to finish the journal bit. When it was uploaded to all the usual places, I put away the laptop. I watched some telly, while I edited a few Koa snaps on my phone, and while I worked a bit on a blog post. Koa and I went out for a short walkies, and then he got his meal. I fixed some food too, as I was feeling rather hungry. After the meal, I went upstairs, and took down, and folded, the dry laundry. I took it downstairs with me, and put it on the bed. I tried to relax for a while, as today was going to be a long day, with the coach coming first, and then my friend coming to help me with the back garden. So, after the chores were done for a bit, Koa and I went to the bedroom, where we relaxed for a little while. When my brain got too jumpy from “doing nothing”, I got up again, walked Koa, tried to clean a bit, and then I watched TV until the doorbell rang, and the coach arrived. We started on the papers that needed to be in order, which was quite some work… I had not expected bestie just yet, as I got her text late, so I thought she was running late. When the doorbell went about 10 minutes later, I was very surprised when it was her. I was finishing up with the coach, and bestie took Koa out for a little walk. When they got back, we were rounding up things as well. So, the coach left, and bestie, and I got ready to start the hard work. There was some rain, but it quickly ended, and we went outside. We started by pulling out all the pins, and then I had to take of the little turf that Koa had been using a lot. I tried to put it in the container, and with some wiggling, it went in. It was a smelly job, even with all the rinsing I had given the turf. The root-fabric came off, and bestie started the hard work of raking the soil. We have a clay soil, and the area was quite bumpy. I found a little slat, that bestie could use to level the soil with, as much as possible. While she was doing that, I fixed up some lunch. After a break we started with putting the fabric back. We added a few new bits to really close it off as good as possible. Then, we started adding the grass. Cutting it to the right size was a bit challenging, but we managed to get it all in. Around 2pm, we were dead and done. And, Koa was allowed to break in the new grass with a new ball… That didn’t last him too long haha. But, I took a little video, and he seemed to love it, running around like an idiot, haha. Bestie got ready to head home again, And then Koa and I got ready to head to bed, as we were both rather tired. It didn’t take too long for Koa to start snoozing, and a little while after that, I was able to get comfy, and doze off too. I woke up once, for the loo, and Koa was still snoring peacefully. When I woke up again, it was just after 23, which meant that Koa had gone without a potty break for about 8 hours! He must have been really tired (and getting better at controlling his bladder). I quickly got up to let him out, and together, we started our new “day”. Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life"

I really appreciate it

as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days!

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@PixysJourney@beige.party · Jul 26, 2026

#Journal of a hot & cold Dutch AuDHD Pixy

(Sunday, 26/07/2026). I didn’t have a too bad night. Koa seems to be getting better at sleeping longer periods of time, which is a nice thing to happen… But, I did struggle with my body, both my back and my belly, unfortunately. So when I got up, I had to deal with that first, before I could get to the scale, dress, deal with my meds, and fix Koa’s food. When Koa finished his meal, we went to the couch, where I got my laptop, and started my email to my sweet friend. When I was finished, I got some brekkie, and I started my journal toot. After brekkie was done, Koa wanted to head out for walkies, so we went for the SniffiVerse™ round. We walked a little different this time, adding a wee bit more distance. Koa did excellent, and when we got back, I hoped that he was tired enough, so I could finish my journal toot. It took a little longer than I thought, for Koa to settle down. I popped in the 5th Ice Age Movie, and then I was able to finish the toot. I uploaded it to all the usual places, and then I put the laptop away. I used my phone to work on a blog post for a bit. When the movie ended, I took them upstairs, and brought a few Muppet movies downstairs with me. I popped one in the player, and watched it while I tried to relax. When the movie had ended, Koa and I went out on another little walk. When we got back, I fixed some food for Koa, and then I went upstairs to ride my bike for a little while. This time, Koa allowed it, so I managed to get half an hour in. Back downstairs, I had some food, and Koa and I tried to relax for a little bit. I felt a bit like crap, as my temperature fluctuated again and again, and my tummy wasn’t playing too nicely either. I fixed myself some food, but before I could finish it, I got so nauseated… Well, we all know what happens then… I felt even worse after that, and I decided to go to bed for a while. Not so sleep, but to calm down, and try to get my body relaxed again. I was really not feeling too well, and I was afraid that I’d not be in any state to help my friend with my mess when she’d come. I texted her and told her I was worried that I may not be in any state to help, but that I would try if she’d still be willing to come. And, she came… She made a start on the cupboard, and told me to sit back, and make sure that Koa would not be in the way too much. Which I tried. We had a little break, and walked with Koa, and then she finished it all for me. It looked so easy, and I wish I could have done it on my own, but yeah… Nope… We chatted for a while, and then she offered to take out some of the weeds that had been bugging me. And, she went so fast, making it look so easy again. And, while I was super grateful for all the help, I also struggled a bit, because I felt so “stupid” for not being able to do these “simple” things myself. So yeah… It was a bit of a double set of emotions. My friend offered to walk with Koa, and then she headed back home again. I was so tired, that, after Koa had his meal, we went to bed. I wanted to watch some Criminal Minds and try to relax my sore body. But, within a few minutes, I was already snoozing. When I woke up again, I startled myself, as I had not thought I was that bad… But, I got to the loo, put away my tablet, and I went back to sleep. Koa is doing so much better these days, being able to sleep longer with less potty breaks. When I woke up again, it was still a bit early. Another hour, maybe two even, would have been very welcome. But, my body was sore, my tummy was upset too, and Koa wanted to go out now. So, we got up, and we started our “day” a little earlier than planned. Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life"

I really appreciate it

as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days!

💜 🍀 🐾 #PixysJourney #WeirdFolks #ActuallyAuDHD #KoaKoolani

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Cynni Pixy @PixysSnaps@pixelfed.social · Jul 24, 2026

Water 💦 hose puppy 🐾 fun Screengrabs - part 1 #Labrador #DogsOfMastodon #Dog #DogsOfPixelfed #Labradorable #Puppy #PixelfedDogs #KoaKoolani

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@PixysJourney@beige.party · Jul 23, 2026

Nothing bad at all! 😁 Just a >5k character journal Toot, so this could save some folks from scrolling too long... 😇 Hover or focus to reveal Sensitive

#Journal of a slightly better Dutch AuDHD Pixy

(Thursday, 23/07/2026). I didn’t have the worst night, but I did wake up with my back not being too happy with me… Ah well, Koa was all good with getting up and starting our “day” as well, so that was good. We started with the usual things, and when Koa had a full belly, we went to the couch, where I started my email to my sweet friend. When I was done, I got my brekkie, and I started writing my journal toot. But, Koa was a bit restless, probably due to his molars changing still giving him discomfort/pain, so, I decided that Koa and I would walk to the DHL parcel vault, to pick up the Shaun plushie. The walk went well, and I was glad that I brought my head lamp with me, as parts of the pavements weren’t too visible, due to trees and hedges blocking the light from the streetlamps. And, as not all the pavements are smooth, I used the little lamp to see where I was going. I tracked the walk with Koa’s collar, and according to it, when we got back, we had walked 1,9km. About 1,18 miles, according to my app. So, I was hoping that Koa would settle down, and I could finish the journal toot in peace. But, I still took a little while before Koa relaxed, and I could write my bit. While I was writing, I was watching the new Blu-ray movie that I had gotten, the Shaun the Sheep movie. It was really fun to have it play while I was writing. And although I knew I would love it, I enjoyed it even more than I had thought at first… I finished the journal bit, uploaded it to all the usual places, and then I worked a bit on a blog post, before I put away the laptop. When the movie was finished, Koa and I went out for another walk. I felt OK enough to go upstairs, when we got back, and I managed to ride my bike for 15 minutes. When I got back down, I tried to relax a bit. I thought about feeding my little monster, but I don’t think I actually did it. So, when I got up after watching some telly, I could not remember feeding Koa… And he wasn’t too pleased with me, so I figured that my foggy brain had forgotten to feed Koa… Whoops! I quickly got to work, and was met with a very pleased doggo. I am sure that he would have been just as pleased to receive a second meal, but it really didn’t feel like that… After Koa was done with his meal, we went out for a short walk, and then I tried to relax a while, as I wanted to go to the supermarket when it opened. Which I did do, and then, when I came back, I realized I had forgotten the bananas I had promised Koa. Damn, stupid foggy brain. I texted the neighbor, asking that, if she’d be up for a walk to the supermarket, if Koa and I could join her, to get those bananas I promised him… She wasn’t sure if she was going, so I was just going to go to the supermarket on Friday, and try to get them then… I went upstairs for another bike ride, and Koa allowed me to ride for 30 minutes. It felt good, but I was also tired when I was done. I got back down, walked another short round with Koa, and then, we had some water-hose fun in the garden, as I had to rinse off his little grassy patch. Koa had the bestest of fun, and I tried to capture it all on video. After that, Koa and I went to relax for a little while. I didn’t hear from the neighbor, and I was rather tired, and my back started to annoy me more so… We went to bed. To relax at first, and to sleep later. I was watching Criminal Minds, when I saw a text from the neighbor come in, that she was at the gate. I got out of bed, in my sexy shortamas, and I took Koa with me. I opened the gate, and I hoped that all would go well, as it was the first time that Koa was loose like that. And… I have to admit, I was a bit scared (and Nicole told me she was a bit anxious as well...). Koa and I went outside, but I didn't have the time to get Koa on the leash, so, he went to Nicole with only his GPS collar on (yay for that, otherwise I would not have dared it at all). He was so excited to see Nicole, and then he realized that he was not on his leash. We saw him in doubt a bit, as he wanted to explore, but it was also a bit scary. He went to the grassy area, and did a big number two (so it was good that he was out I guess). Nicole watched him, when I was getting a baggy, as I did want to clean it up. When I got back, Koa had realized that Nicole's gate was open, so he'd gone to her place, as he still wonders why Bundy isn't there anymore (we had the same when Arwen passed away, Bundy came into the house a few times as well, to look for her... 😢). Koa then saw Dennis, Nicole’s youngest son that lives with her, and he got even wilder, as he wanted all the cuddles. In the end, I was very relieved when I closed the gate behind us, with Koa being safe in the garden again. But, the magic word "snackje" (little snack), and the crunching with the bag of little snacks (and of course offering one when he came to us), it worked! He came to me, he came to Nicole, and he stayed close enough for us to see him. But yeah, I was glad that he had the GPS collar on, because, should something have happened, then at least we would have been able to easily find him again... But, in the end, it was a good exercise for both Koa and me. And I was glad that Nicole was there too, should something have happened, as I was in my sexy sleepy outfit haha! After that, Koa and I got back to bed. And, it didn’t take too long before I dozed off. Unfortunately, I didn’t have my long-lasting meds anymore, so after a few hours, my back wasn't too pleased with me, and I had to take another painkiller, to be able to sleep some more. But, my stomach and all wasn’t too pleased with me either, so when I woke up again with some heartburn, and a very annoyed bowel system, well… I decided it was best to just get up, and start our “day” earlier than usual… And, let’s just see how things would go… Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life"

I really appreciate it

as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days!

💜 🍀 🐾 #PixysJourney #WeirdFolks #ActuallyAuDHD #KoaKoolani PS. Sorry no Koa snapshot this time... I still have to try and get some screengrabs from today's video. I did play with some editing, and made a silly edited video of Koa's water hose fun on the 18th and 23rd. Don't expect anything awesome from me 😂 but Koa did his best to be awesome. Video can be seen here: https://makertube.net/w/qD37KTaS6chEGPUQ6twPp4

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@PixysJourney@beige.party · Jul 19, 2026

I had an autistic meltdown, of which I'm a tad ashamed... 😔 But nothing too bad happened... Still, it's a bit of a longer Toot, and it has the meltdown in it, so I added the CW. 😊 Hover or focus to reveal Sensitive

#Journal of an ashamed Dutch AuDHD Pixy

(Saturday, 18/07/2026). We didn’t have the worst night, but I didn’t feel all rested and good when we got up. Still, Koa told me it was time, so we started our “day”. I got to the scale, which was less bad than I thought it would be, and I dressed. I took my meds, which were very much welcome, and then I fixed Koa’s meal. When Koa had a full belly, we got to the couch, where I grabbed my laptop, and I started an email to my sweet friend. I finished the email to my friend, and I had some brekkie. I started on my journal toot, and then I took Koa out for a short walk. It was cooler again outside, which was very nice indeed. We got back to the couch, where I finished my journal post, and I shared it to all the usual places. I put the laptop away, and tried to relax for a while. I felt a bit uneasy, like something was bothering me, and I didn’t know what. Koa started to behave a bit like an asshat, trying to steal all sorts of things, and it was bugging me a lot. When he finally settled down again, I went upstairs to ride the bike for a while. Which went well enough. I got back down, and took Koa for a longer walk. I noticed I was a bit more annoyed with him when he was not following properly, or trying to put everything in his mouth, you know, puppy behavior. And I just could not understand why it triggered me so much this time. I just thought it was because my back was still troubling me, and I felt tired as well. We got back, and then I fixed some food for Koa. After that, I needed to relax for a bit. But… Koa was doing all sorts of things, and it triggered me so much, that I snapped. I felt that I was getting too angry, and I managed to pick up Koa and put him in the crate. But there was some yelling, I did smash a door, and I cried so much… I was just so overwhelmed, and I needed to take myself out of the situation, but I couldn’t as there was no one to “take over from me”, so I needed to fix things first… I felt so much anger, so much fear, and I knew I had to find a way to calm down again. I am glad, in a way, that I recognize autistic meltdowns better now, and I kinda know how to deal with them. But… Once I am calmer, I feel such a pain and shame… I know that Koa wasn’t harmed, but I know I must have scared him, and I hated myself so much for that. I even tear up again while I am writing this. When I was calm again, when I had been able to breathe in and out, and reflect on the meltdown, I took Koa from the crate. He jumped into my arms, and he started to lick away all the tears that were falling… I felt so bad, so guilty, so horrible… And here he was. Just shy of 5 months, comforting me, not blaming me for anything… So I cuddled him as best as I could, while his fur was slowly getting wet and all. I was so grateful as I felt like he was forgiving me, maybe even apologizing for doing the things that made me so overwhelmed to begin with. I started to feel a bit better again, and I took Koa out for a little walk. We got back, we relaxed, and then we got ready to drive to Oss, where I had to pick up my parcel. We arrived there well enough, but it was such a mess, that I had no idea what to do. I took Koa, and we walked to one of the men loading a van, and I just asked. My heart was going crazy, guess I still had not calmed down all the way from this morning’s bad episode. But, the man pointed me in the right direction with a smile. A little while further, 5 men were having some fun together, and all together, they pointed me into the same direction, all smiling, but also aware of the little bouncy dog that was with me. I managed to get my parcel, and Koa and I headed home again. I unpacked the package, and took out the inlays. I cut them to the right size for my new shoes, and I saw that my old inlays were as dead as my old shoes. I put in the new ones, and then I fixed some food. A parcel with some snacks for Koa was being delivered, just before my food was done. I enjoyed my meal, unpacked Koa’s snacks, and saw they sent me something I didn’t order. It was something I could use, so yeah, I will just keep it. But I will need to find a place to order the things I do need now… So that’s some extra costs again, while the funds are not that high… Koa and I relaxed for a while, and we went out for one more walk. Then, we headed to bed. I wanted to relax for a while, but I noticed I was so tired, that I dozed off before I knew it. I didn’t even get to finish my book, a Grisham one, that seems to take me forever to finish. Somehow, I have been trying to finish it for almost 2 months now. I wonder if I am slower with reading, if it’s a bigger book (and the digital pages are misleading, as they sometimes can be), or if I am just less interested in reading the last few weeks… But yeah, I dozed off and slept for a while. I woke up for the loo, and Koa and I went outside. But, Koa wasn’t interested in doing anything, so after some minutes, we went back to bed. Koa woke me up for a potty break, and then, we got back to bed. He made some noises, but I begged him for some more sleep. And, somehow, he allowed me just that. When I woke up again, I was startled when I saw the clock. I checked my watch, and according to it, I had slept about 9¾ hours in total! Koa was very excited to hear me getting up, and I felt sore from the long lie in, but I also felt a bit more relaxed from the longer sleep. So, Koa and I got up, and we started our “day”. Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life"

I really appreciate it

as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days!

💜 🍀 🐾 #PixysJourney #WeirdFolks #ActuallyAuDHD #KoaKoolani

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Cynni Pixy @PixysSnaps@pixelfed.social · Jul 19, 2026

Puppy playtime with the water hose! Screengrabs taken from this video: https://makertube.net/w/bz2pUyn6oL2VgYMUkA4v9X #Labrador #DogsOfMastodon #Puppy #PixelfedDogs #DogsOfPixelfed #Labradorable #KoaKoolani

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@PixysJourney@beige.party · Jul 15, 2026

Ello sweet and lovely Friendos

#GoodMorning and #TZAG everyone

#Today ... Is a very mixed day... I didn't have the worst sleep, so that's a plus. Although there was a buzzing terrorist 🦟 zooming around again... Ugh... Koa did rather wel during the night as well, which was very nice. 😊 The night itself was decent too. I wrote my sweet friend, I wrote my journal Toot, I checked my bird app (Finch), I re-watched more Criminal Minds... I had a nice walk with Koa. Until the morning walk... Which was 🤢! Koa got something in his mouth, and without thinking, my right hand went in to extract it... 🤮 And... It was some sort of fresh animal

which made me gag so hard! I dragged Koa back home as fast as my bad back and leg could take me, trying not to vomit on the streets... While I was washing my hands like the skin had to come off all the way, Koa sat next to me, with such a smug

look on his face, like he was all proud of his wonderful achievement! Well... Yeah... I managed to go to the store this morning, and remember almost all that I needed to buy. Almost all... But I'm not going back... It took me my last spoons just to get there the first time... Today is also the second anniversary of Arwen's heavenly 🪽 birthday. I miss her so much...

I really love Koa! (except when holding back vomit when my hand is full of shit!) But I also still love and miss my gall... I know I still have to do my exercise today, so I'll try to do that after some relaxing, and another walk with Koa after that. I really need to keep myself at it, as I will only benefit from it in the (near) future... Hope you're all having a wonderful day sweeties! Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life"

I really appreciate it

as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days!

🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾

#PixysJourney #KoaKoolani #RIPArwen Edit: made a stupid error, had to do better... 😇

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@PixysJourney@beige.party · Jul 13, 2026

Ello sweet and lovely Friendos

#GoodMorning and #TZAG everyone

It's going to be a warm and sunny day, according to the weather witches 🧙🏼‍♀️. It's now a nice and cool 15°C, and in a little bit, I'll take Koa out for a longer walk (ow that reminds me to take my meds now!). Hopefully we can manage another nice 1km walk together, which would be good for the both of us. 😊 I've been sharing a few pictures on my two Pixelfed accounts. I'll boost some of them here in a bit, as I usually do. Today will be a long day, as we'll have the last puppy class. It should have been last week, but the teacher got stuck in traffic, so it's rescheduled. I'm not too enthusiastic, but since I paid for it... I'll just go and see if there's something interesting in this last class. I've not been able to practice a lot with Koa, due to the stupid back situation. 😔 I really hope we can pick it up soon again. I may ask my neighbor, if she's feeling up to it, to maybe try and help me practice the "come here" command. I wanna take Koa to the closed off doggy pen, and maybe we can practice together, by each calling him to us (not together, but in turns, of course). But the next two weeks will have some more hot days, so if she would be interested and able, we'd probably have to do it in the mornings. 😊 Another coach is coming to our place this morning, as Steph is on holiday. I hope it will go well, as I still struggle with new people, especially if they have to be in my home... Well, let's grab my headphones

and let Koa from the crate (he was trying to eat me, haha, so he got a little time-out before walkies). Hopefully the walk will go well... Catch you all later lovelies!

🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾

#PixysJourney #KoaKoolani

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@PixysJourney@beige.party · Jul 11, 2026

#Journal of a Dutch AuDHD Pixy

(Saturday, 11/07/2026). I had a decent enough night with, according to my watch, about 7½ hours of sleep. It was broken up, of course, as Koa needed to go out several times. Ow, I cant wait for his bladder to hold it up a wee bit longer… We got up, I got dressed, I took my meds, prepped Koa’s meal, and we started our day. I wrote an email to my sweet friend. There was some good news, so that was very nice indeed. When I had finished the email, I got some brekkie. I struggled to write the journal toot, so when Koa wanted to go out, we went for a short walk. A bit of fresh air, and some movement, it did me good. But, I still struggled to write my journal toot somehow. I managed in the end, but I had a slight headache, and it was annoying me. I worked a bit on my blog, and then I put away the laptop. Koa and I tried to relax a little with some telly. Then, we went out on another short walkies. I had this bläh feeling, and I just didn’t understand why… I had gotten some decent sleep, the meds were helping me reasonably well, and some good things had been happening. But still, I struggled with my emotions and energy. I went upstairs to ride my bike for a little while. After that, Koa and I went out for a bit of a longer walk. I thought he’d enjoyed the one yesterday, and it’s good for the both of us, so hey ho! Koa was a bit difficult to handle on the leash, as he kept pulling this way and that, and he struggled with the sounds of the doggy boarding area, as there was a lot of barking to be heard. When we got back, I really needed to relax for a while. The bike ride, and the longer walk, they had drained me for a bit. So, Koa and I relaxed for a bit, he in his crate, and I on bed. I didn’t sleep, I watched Criminal Minds on my tablet, and scrolled a bit through the FediVerse. After some time, we got up again, and Koa signaled he wanted to head out again. So, we went for another little walk. We relaxed for a while, with some telly, some online scrolling, some short walkies. I still felt a bit bläh… One of my parcels arrived nice on time. The others were coming with a different carrier, DHL and, as usual, they were making a mess of things again. This, of course, didn’t help me with my headache and feelings of bläh. Around noon, Koa and I went for another nice walk. The weather was getting warmer, and we walked a wee bit differently, so Koa got some new sniffs in. When we got back home, we went to bed a bit earlier, not to sleep at first, but to relax. I had walked quite a bit, as I managed >8.5k in steps today. The last few days, Koa and I have been trying to get some more walks in, with the meds helping me with that. Last week, my steps average increased a little after starting the meds, and it went to about 5k average. When I now check the last 7 days, the average is at a little over 7k. So not too bad at all. Of course, it’s nothing compared to my “old” averages, but with a puppy, no gym, a bad back and all… It’s quite a challenge to even get to 5k steps… I had asked my online friendos on Masto, if some would be interested in chatting with me. I got some replies, and when I was relaxing on bed, I chatted for a while with a very kind lady in Australia. After a while, I fed Koa, and I let him out into the garden. When he had done his things, we got ready to head to bed. It took me some time to doze off. And when I finally did, a loud banging on the door woke me up again… Of course DHL had to mess up again. I had put into the app that they should deliver it with my neighbor (with her permission). So, they wanted to deliver it with me… And now I have to wait until they deliver it at the parcel vault next week… Ugh, it just drives me nuts at times… I dozed off again, until Koa woke me up for a potty break. After that, he allowed me a little over 4 hours of sleep, before waking me up again, letting me know he was done with being in the crate. So, we got up, and we started our “day”. Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life"

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@PixysJourney@beige.party · Jul 11, 2026

#GoodMorning and #TZAG everyone

It's been a busy night/morning. I've had some good walks with Koa. I'm exhausted from them, but I think he enjoyed them a lot! 😁 I started a Toot that gained a lot more attention than I am used to getting...and... Wow!!!

Thanks to everyone for replying, adding more hashtags to the 📸 list... It's made me nuts at times, 😂 all those edits! But the list is getting better and better!

But... All the busy stuff, the walks, still dealing with my herniated disc, still dealing with broken up sleep (looking at you there, Koa!)... I'm done for now! Please, keep replying to the photo link Toot if you know more "topic-day" related photography tags! And I'll do my best to add them when I can. Fankoos to all for making this a great morning! I'm exhausted

haha! Catch you all later lovelies!

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@PixysJourney@beige.party · Jul 10, 2026

#Journal of a slightly enthusiastic, and slightly exhausted, Dutch AuDHD Pixy

(Thursday, 09/07/2026). After an OK enough night, with about 7 hours of sleep in total, Koa told me it was time to get up and to start our “day”. I got to the scale, which surprised me a little, in a nice way. I dressed, took my meds, fed the little nibbler, and then I got to the couch with my laptop. I wrote a long email to my sweet friend, followed by my journal toot. When the toot was uploaded to all the usual places, I put away the laptop, and fixed myself some brekkie. After brekkie, Koa and I went for a short walkies. When we got back, we crashed on the couch, and relaxed for a while. I worked a bit on a blog post, while I watched some Criminal Minds. After some telly time, it was getting light out, and Koa and I went for another walk. I made some food for Koa, before I headed upstairs for my little bike ride. Koa wasn’t too pleased with me being gone, but fortunately, he wasn't too vocal about it. When I got back downstairs, I fixed myself some food as well. Bestie called me on her way to physio, and we had a nice chat. I walked a bit with Koa, and then we relaxed again. I wanted to go to the store, to buy some envelopes and stamps. I could go with Skoosh, and be back in a jiffy. But, the weather was nice, my meds were working, and I felt eager to walk a bit, and see how that would go. I texted the neighbor, asking if she’d be interested in joining me and Koa for a walk to the store. It turned out, she was just getting ready to head to the supermarket, which is about 140m from the store I needed. So, we met up to walk together. After a little bit, she took over Koa’s leash, which helped my back a lot. And, I think she enjoyed it too. It had been two weeks since her furry loved one had passed the rainbow bridge, so it was hard for her. But, I saw her smile a bit from time to time, which made me feel a bit better. I had forgotten to turn on the GPS tracking on Koa’s collar, so we missed a bit of the activity. But… We managed to get to the stores, and then back again. I was dead, and Koa was rather tired too. Time and distance wise, it was the max for him, maybe a bit too much, because of all the new impressions. But, Koa had done a great job! And I think all three of us had enjoyed the little walk and company. When we got home, I gave Koa something to snack, and he went to the crate in the bedroom. I went to bed, not to sleep, but to relax. We had walked almost 2km, and it was a lot for my poor back and leg. And, while I was exhausted, I also felt good about it. We relaxed for about 90 minutes, and then Koa wanted to go out again. He had drunk a lot after coming home, so he had to wee. I was all for a short nip to the grassy field behind the house, and then back again. Koa wanted a bit more… Which was not appreciated by my leg and back. We got back, and we relaxed a bit. I got Koa’s old-skool photo album, and I started adding the pictures that had arrived the previous day. Koa started “playing” with my curtains, which I had closed due to both heat and light, and when he used his little teefs in them, I put him back into the crate. I finished adding all the pictures, now I need to add all the dates into an excel sheet, and hope that my dad will want to print them, so that I can cut them out, and add them to the pictures. When I was done, I gave Koa his meal. We went into the garden for a while, where he could do his things. After that, I took my meds, and we got ready to head to bed. It was a bit earlier, but I was just so tired… Of course, Koa was snoozing in no time, and it took me a bit longer to get comfortable enough to doze off. I woke up a few times for doggy breaks, I still hope that, sooner rather than later, Koa will be back to needing max 1 potty break a night. He was on one for a while, but then he fell back into needing two… The breeder says the bladder control should be getting better once they’ve finished the teething process. Koa has two wobble little teefs in the front, and he still needs to exchange the fangs and molars… So, I guess I will have to be patient a bit longer… (although, after more than 11 weeks, I do long for a few “good nights”…). We got up, and I used the scale. It was a bit higher, weight wise, but the fat percentage was a bit lower, so I guess it’s not that bad. I still hope to get my weight below the 80 kilos again, sooner than later would be nice, I want to be able to shed this obesity again… At the end of last year, I finally got close to it, but then, due to weather, family things, and me feeling like crap, it went up again. I really hope that I can start visiting the gym again soon, if both Koa and my body will allow it… I really miss it, in more than one way… Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life"

I really appreciate it

as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days!

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@PixysJourney@beige.party · Jul 09, 2026

Ello sweet and lovely Friendos

#GoodNight and #TZAG everyone

Even though I had about 7 hours of sleep in total, with two interruptions for Koa's potty breaks, I still feel exhausted. I am struggling to enjoy the things that I usually enjoy. It sometimes feels like it's just too hard... 😔 I've been sharing some of my music collection on Pixelfed. I boosted some posts through this account. I just needed some positive distraction... I tried to group all sorts of music posts into a collection on Pixelfed: 🔗 https://pixelfed.social/c/821902671576567911 On October 29th last year, I also shared some of my vinyl collection on my blog... I tried to add some more info and background to the post. So, should you want to check it out, here is the link: 🔗 https://wp.me/pbx9Bc-4KX And I spent some money I should not have spent... But last time I didn't order it when I saw it, I lost the chance to order it later, as it was sold out (and being re-sold for 4-6x the original price..!). I hope that I still will have a wee bit of money left... I do want to save for a new sound system, as my current one is old and dead. 😢 But I also want to grab some vinyls to my sweet little collection, so I have some music to enjoy, once I *finally* manage to get the funds for that little sound system that I found. (it's about €1000, which sounds expensive, and it is, but when compared to others, it feels like it's one of the cheaper ones... 🫣). Ah well... This makes me long sometimes, back to the times where I thought I was happy (and I guess I was though, to some extent) in my poly relationship... When we had shared costs, and three decent incomes... We had all we needed, all we wanted, and didn't need to worry too much... There were cons to a poly relationship, sure... But, the financial situation we had, it was a nice pro for me for sure... 😊 I will do my best to make some good calculations, as I want to get a special vinyl by a dear fiend as well... I still have their store page open on my tablet. And, hopefully, in a few weeks, I may be able to order their album... I really want to support them, and it would be awesome to add to my little collection... 😇 Well... Let's see if I can write a bit for my blog site... I need to get some "stuff" out of my mind, as it's making my brain go nuts... And yes, I did take my ADHD meds... I am "just" struggling with too many things at the moment, and I'm trying to "let it all out" by trying to write about it, here and on my blog. Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life"

I really appreciate it

as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days!

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@PixysJourney@beige.party · Jul 02, 2026

Ello sweet and lovely Friendos

Well, I managed to have a little simple play time with Koa. My back didn't like it too much, but I tried not to care, as I saw how much Koa enjoyed it. And... He deserved it! ❤️ Depending if I get better meds, I want to go to Nijmegen tomorrow, to pick up some groceries that mum got for me. If mum has the time, and if I (hopefully) will feel a bit better... I hope to take Koa, together with mum and Sir Barks-A-Lot™ to the woods, where they have a water area whwre dogs are allowed. It would be Koa's first time getting to the waterside 💦. I wanted to do it sooner, but weather and back... 😔 So... Not only fingers 🤞🏻 are crossed, but also my toes, heck even my eyes if it would help, that GP can get me meds, which I can pick up from the meds vault tonight... She said to call between 14:30-15:30. And yeah, I still hate calls... But this one is very important, so I am already waiting for it...

But, I was glad to have a wee bit of play time with my dude! There were tears... 🥲 Some from pain, and some from happiness... I still miss Arwen so much, but Koa brings a lot of love back into my little life...

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life"

I really appreciate it

as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days!

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#PixysJourney #KoaKoolani

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@PixysJourney@beige.party · Jun 29, 2026

#Journal of a grateful Dutch AuDHD Pixy

(Monday, 29/06/2026). I had a very bad night. Painkillers didn’t seem to help too much, and I was just so exhausted, but I could not get comfortable. Koa was affected by me as well, it seemed, as he struggled to get calm too. But then, he snoozed and all, and after some time, I was able to sleep some too. Koa woke me up a few times, and around 22:45, it was time to get up. I was still tired and sore, but as we’d gone to bed earlier than usual due to me feeling crap, I didn’t want to crate Koa even more. So, we got up, and we started our “day”. I made Koa’s meal, took my meds, and then I got to the couch. As usual, I wrote an email to a sweet friend, and I wrote my journal toot, which I shared in the usual places. As my back was not too happy with me, and I was still rather tired, I tried to relax a bit with some telly. Koa joined me on the couch, which was very sweet indeed. After brekkie, I wanted to play my game a bit more. I was settled in and all, and then Koa came to cuddle with me. He pressed his snout on my buttons, so that wasn’t helpful, haha. And as he lay across my legs, it hurt a bit due to my back. But, when Koa wasn’t using his teefs, the cuddling was actually quite nice, and very welcome. After some time, Koa released me again, and I was able to game some more. But as I was so tired, it was harder to maintain my focus on the game, so I turned it off, and watched some more telly. Bestie called on her way to work, and we had a nice chat. And then Koa claimed some attention, which required me to head to the kitchen, and rinse my thumb, and put a bandage on, while chatting to bestie… Koa had hit my thumb with one of the sharp teefs, and it bled quite nicely. And people wonder why I call him my little vampire, haha. After the call, I booted up the game again, and I managed to finish the first chapter. I shared some screengrabs on Masto, and then I turned off the PS5 again. I relaxed with some telly, until my ASS-ADHD coach came. She asked how it was going, and I immediately burst out all the health issues. Within 5 minutes, she was calling the GP. And, I don’t know how, she got me an appointment within an hour time! She walked with Koa for me, which I think both of them enjoyed. Then, she and I took Skoosh, and we headed to the GP. We were a tad early, and the GP was a tad late, so it was hard to wait in the waiting room without my headphones and music… The GP was very nice, she really listened, she examined, she discussed, and she diagnosed… I have a herniated disc, which is most likely pinching both nerves and a muscle. I got better meds, and she will call me on Thursday afternoon to discuss the meds. If needed, she will adjust them, so that I can at least be able to care for myself, and for Koa. We got back, and my coach had to leave, as she was running late, due to the GP running late. I thanked her, and went inside. Koa was glad to see me, which was very sweet of him. I tried to relax on the couch, and then the pharmacy called. I had a good talk, and they would deliver the meds between 15:00 and 17:30. I could not get comfy on the couch anymore, so after some time, we went to the bedroom to relax, while waiting for the meds to be delivered. I dozed off for a bit, as I was so tired. Then, Koa wanted to go out. So, we did. We got back to bed, and then the doorbell rang. I got my meds, and immediately took the first. Koa was awake and needed to check the house, before he could get settled again. He had heard the doorbell, and he didn’t know what had happened, so better check before snoozing again. We went back to bed, and after some time, both Koa and I dozed off. He woke me up again for another potty break. And we snoozed again. In the end, he woke me up around 23:25, and according to my watch, I had slept about 6½ hours. But, it didn’t count when I dozed off for about an hour earlier, so I guess I got some decent amount of sleep. Then, we got up, and we started our “day”. Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life"

I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days!

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Cynni Pixy @PixysSnaps@pixelfed.social · Jun 27, 2026

On Friday morning (26/06/2026), I took a video of Koa playing with his water shark and blue shell. These are a few screengraba from the video. Original video can be found here: https://makertube.net/w/8ddnbaLgJ8k5C3XxzzmRhw #Labrador #DogsOfMastodon #Dog #DogsOfPixelfed #Labradorable #Puppy #PixelfedDogs #KoaKoolani

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@PixysJourney@beige.party · Jun 26, 2026

#Journal of a hot 🥵 Dutch AuDHD Pixy

(Friday, 26/06/2026). Koa had a bit of a restless night, where he woke up twice for potty breaks. Which also meant that I had a broken night, and not a lot of quality sleep. At least the heat didn’t bother me too much, and I was able to get some sleep. We got up, and started our routine. I got to the scale, which is still painful to do due to my back and leg. I fixed Koa’s meal, and while he munched away, I took my meds. I got to the couch with my laptop, and started writing an email to a sweet friend. It was still too hot to open up the windows, so I kept an eye out on the weather station, so I could crack those windows open as soon as it was cool enough. Koa was rather calm this start of the night, so that was nice as well, as that meant I didn’t have to crate him to keep him safe. When I finished the email, and had just started on the journal toot, Koa started to nibble on the couch again. I don’t want him to get any of these splinters in his mouth, or worse, that he’ll swallow them (he already did that once, and when I cleaned up his number two, the splinter scared the bejeezus out of me… Since then, I am keeping him away from the wood under the couch as much as I can). He stopped for a while, and I could finish my journal toot. When it was updated to all the usual places, I took Koa out for a little walk. We relaxed for a while, and when the temps were lowering enough, I headed upstairs, opened up the windows there, It was nearly 26°C there, so not that bad actually, seeing the weather we’d been having. But still, warm enough to sweat. I got back down, and slowly started to open up the windows and kitchen door here too. We relaxed some more, and when it was getting light out, Koa and I went for a nice, and a bit cooler, walk. There was a slight breeze, which was very welcome as well. When we got back, I fixed Koa’s meal. After a wee bit of relaxing, I thought it would be nice for Koa to have some water fun. I rinsed off the artificial grass, and then I tried to fill up the blue shell a bit. I could not film this, but Koa had a blast playing with all the water. I got him the water toy that Yolande had given him on her first visit, and he had a nice playtime, before it got too hot. I was able to film some of this, so that was nice for sure. When it was getting warmer again, I dried off the worst of Koa, but not all, and we went inside. I closed up all the bits, as the sun was already working hard on getting the temps up again. When it was getting closer to 8am, I got to Skoosh, and we headed to the supermarket for a few groceries. I quickly got what I needed, and we headed back home again. Koa was relaxing in his crate, so that was a good thing for sure. I unpacked the groceries, had a little walk with Koa, and then had a small bite to eat. We relaxed for a while, and Koa got a lickimat with some frozen yogurt, which he seemed to enjoy. He relaxed a bit, and then also enjoyed his snuffle mat. After that, I packed the bag, got an extra one with some water and drinks, and I made sure that my umbrella was in Skoosh as well, just in case. Koa and I got to Skoosh, and we headed to Cuijk. It was warm, but Skoosh worked hard, and she managed to keep the inside cool enough for us to not melt away. I had set it to 22°C, as it was above the 30 degrees already. Koa wanted it even cooler, but I didn’t want it to be too cold. When we were nearly there, I slowly upped the temps a bit, so we would not be hit by the heat as soon as we’d get out. The physio practice had aircon on as well, so Koa and I could wait quite comfortable. Koa wanted to get out a few times, but he never did a wee. There was no grassy area nearby, so I guess that’s what stopped him from not doing a wee… Physio went well, and the massage was more than welcome. Koa didn’t get into too much mischief, although big Bas did startle every time the little hairball let out a bark… After the massage, Koa and I got back to Skoosh. I “fired up” the aircon, slowly setting it colder as we went along. And all went well. When we got back home, Koa did a mighty big wee on the grassy field behind the house. Then we went inside, where it was nice and cool. Koa got his meal, I got a snack, and we both relaxed. It was getting so hot outside, and it even warmed up a bit more inside. I was getting very tired, and even Koa was acting a bit more relaxed. So, we went out for a last pee and poop, and then Koa and I headed to bed. It didn’t take Koa too long to doze off, and it took me a little longer. I woke up a little while later, went to the loo, and got back to bed. When Koa woke me up for his potty break, he’d been sleeping for about 6½ hours, which was very good of him! We managed a bit more sleep after that, and when Koa woke me up again, my watch told me I slept for about 7:45, which was very nice indeed. So, we got up, and we started our “day”. Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life"

I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days!

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Cynni Pixy @PixysSnaps@pixelfed.social · Apr 11, 2026

My boy! ❤️ Picture taken by Stefan on April 11th 2026. Shared with kind permission. I'll get to visit him, and his siblings, again today... Yay! #Labrador #DogsOfMastodon #Dog #DogsOfPixelfed #Labradorable #Puppy #KoaKoolani

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