Made a new account over on wafrn, if we're mutuals and I didn't follow you there that's a mistake so shoot me a message (if you want me to)
it's also on fedi so it'll all still work but I'm not gonna transfer this account out of laziness
CS student
I like programming, both low-level stuff and higher-level stuff (ML in a non-techbro way is also cool).
I also like conlangs/linguistics, but I don't know it very well. Learning Esperanto though!
she/her
English/French/German/Esperanto
programming, making, conlangs
Posts
Endocrinologist meeting complete, levels are good, tho I slightly fucked up the night before and only took half my usual dose (of gel, which has a half-life of 12h ish).
Funky part is my T is very much suppressed on my starter dose of 25mg spiro, but I have been told it's probably not doing much of anything and I'm basically...
accidentally monotherapy-ing on gel. No clue if that's true but w/e, I wanna switch to injections soonish anyway.
One of my boobs/nipples has a layer of really dry skin and it hurts baaad, I think they're having a growth spurt? Is there anything I can really do for it?
When I say hurts I mean that exposure to air lightly aches and any contact is very painful
Well this has been a fucking day huh. Apparently my parents know for sure I'm trans now. Blegh. Whatever.
how do I express the feeling of "I need to be shot directly in the brain" without people being concerned for me
I would also accept "I need my skull caved in"
(To be clear I do not mean that seriously. However the vibe is there. Hate my brain.)
Tonight I get to see how good I am at playing a guy still
Last time I did was ~a month ago, and I did so for 3 days. Thought I did okay but then ended up extremely depressed for another 2 days so eh.
Also yesterday I was incredibly depressed which was probably related. I'm... gonna have to come out to my parents, huh.
woag I forgot to make food again whoops
Somehow my facial hair has gotten even blonder I think??
Like originally it was just black, same as it had been for a year or two (blond before. My hair's weird). It got noticeably paler and blonder in the first month or two.
But I think now it's nearly entirely blond?? Somehow? HRT is fucking magic
Alright chat what do I do tonight
Alright y'all I need some validation, I've just eaten a real meal for the first time since thursday (an entire pizza at 23:50 saturday) instead of like 2 slices of bread
(validation can be anything platonic)
Ok I gave myself mild burns by using an IPL machine on my face (following the rules n all). I'm too white to get this kind of epilation on my face, cus it gets sensitive and burns with. any kind of sunlight. Agh.
Luckily I only used it once, and the burns are very mild. Probably nothing bad or permanent.