vita something :3

honestly, unsure how much i will actually use this acc for now

i can see myself in a future where i am stable again, where i have a stabler calmer life and a better living situation and my life isnt fucked and scary anymore. due to recent revelations it has become much easier for me to distance myself from and move on from the things that pushed me so deeply into brokenness. i have hope for the first time in ages, and can see myself actually growing again and defining myself outside of how fucked it all got.

i want this account to be mine in tje future. i want a calm silly normal life, i dont want panic attacks every night and arms full of scars and drug abuse and a body that is so exhausted and starved i struggle to even stand for 2 minutes sometimes, all while i rot away in a room thats probably filthier than asmongolds. this is more of a kinda shaping myself into a future than something that is already now. like, my life is still fucked but i want it to be stable one day, and i want it to be quiet and not dependant on internet attention. maybe am putting too much meaning on this but idk its just kinda something symbolic to me mrow

mrow