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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Jul 24, 2026

Replying to @spiegelmama@infosec.exchange

Good news Hover or focus to reveal Sensitive

@spiegelmama@infosec.exchange Hmm... Interesting... One of my symptoms is the area that burns is after a reaction to moisture, the skin looks like it is burned, and feels like it is burned. It is possible my Primary put this down today, after our appt... because of my urgency to leave this apartment. Fancy! The burns occur in skin folds, and knee/elbow pits. I've not finished the article, but I want to read it all the way! Thx for the info :)

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Jul 24, 2026

Good news with medical conditions Hover or focus to reveal Sensitive

Good new everyone! I finally have a primary care I can trust! After our third or fourth video call. Been 10 years since my last good one. To prove to Section 8 why I need to get out of this apartment, a diagnosis named: Erythromelalgia.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Jul 15, 2026

Replying to @Maker_of_Things@cupoftea.social

@Maker_of_Things@cupoftea.social Faces. Shudder. I can feel that bothersome feeling too. I'm face blind.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Jul 15, 2026

Replying to @Maker_of_Things@cupoftea.social

@Maker_of_Things@cupoftea.social Indeed. I learned that, somewherelast year. Once I understood I needed to type words without disguises, I stopped hiding any words, and sometimes purposefully use words that I'm guessing is what someone would filter, so they wont see the topic I wanted to talk about. EG: Let them mute cake. Dont type Kake.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Jul 15, 2026

Replying to @alexisbushnell@toot.wales

@alexisbushnell@toot.wales I also have the same idea about triggers... Everything is a trigger to someone. Having a rule to never post triggers... I might as well not say anything. Link... List... oooo yes please! thank you!

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Jul 15, 2026

Request for genuine help that might require a DM Hover or focus to reveal Sensitive

Something I want help with... Can someone post to me (DM or whatever I can read) a list of everything that is a "trigger" I been unable to remember, because I keep forgeting to write all that shit down... and I have too many bookmarks to find the previous time someone told me. I have a corkboard next to me. I plan to write the list, and stick it there. So few things get pinned. The most vital notes exist there. I want to know, what not to say.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Jul 04, 2026

Replying to @luckytran@mastodon.social

@luckytran@mastodon.social Booo to government silencing.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Jun 27, 2026

Replying to @spiegelmama@infosec.exchange

@spiegelmama@infosec.exchange Only time I was treated nicely by strangers is when I forgot I had my home-only hairstyle that looks like Harly Quinn (pigtails). I'm usually treated like a Karen.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Jun 27, 2026

Replying to @spiegelmama@infosec.exchange

@spiegelmama@infosec.exchange Agreed. I have loathed them since I tried it once when they were a few months new. The noise! The Rush! The forgetting. No thank you society. DoNotWant. I never tried again. I rather wait in line at a register, or order online.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Jun 27, 2026

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I've always struggled with forgetting stuff that is important to other people. I given up remembering other people's special dates, like bdays and anniversaries, because they are so rare, and are remembered by numbers, two areas of brain activity I havent been able to improve my whole life. It has been a decades long struggle to get care support for these socially vital things, and get non-overbearing support from the government. Self-determination support I continue to be waiting for

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Jun 27, 2026

Topic: forgetting and punishments Toomany times I have forgotten or was too slow to fix something I had forgotten to do. Most deem me as some kinda malicious, for whatever I forgot to do. For some, quickly as 5 min by the time I can resolve it, it is already too late. They deem me as something bad and never let me fix it. Forgetting stuff has resulted in my mom's BFF having to move out of our city, I been kicked out of communities I been in for years, blocked and why I never do self-checkout.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Jun 16, 2026

Replying to @GreenRoc@mastodon.social

Hearing problem? Not necessarily. Mental filter problem? Very likely. I hear more things than most people. I can hear speech, but I cant understand speech if it is muffled. Mumbled, thick accent, distorted, etc, cant comprehend what words were spoken amidst noise. Clear speech that is the loudest noise around, is required for my comprehension. My word retention however, is a completely different part of the brain that almost never works unless the words are repeated. Disabling? Hell yes.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Jun 16, 2026

My parents put me through hearing tests more than once in my school life. I passed everytime. Tests did not include speech among daily noise,. Test was simply beeps of different volume and pitches, One beep at a time. Put me into a room with a noisy crowd, I might as well be listening in a room full of Charlie Brown Teachers. "You are not listening" my father yelled. No, I could not process the words muffled by everyday noise. EG: engines, foot steps, plastic/box rustling, speech, etc.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · May 15, 2026

What makes me happy?
Being accepted.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · May 14, 2026

I want leaders with empathy and compassion.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · May 14, 2026

Topic: USpolitics

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder...

I prefer the lake to be a natural color, like green, black or brown paint. Natural looks would be beautiful in my eyes. Blue would just suck, and look artificial.

https://www.bbc.com/news/videos/cp8pmgmpgj3o

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · May 14, 2026

Replying to @theautisticcoach@neurodifferent.me

@theautisticcoach@neurodifferent.me They ban and punish and shame us for being 'too sensitive'. To have something 'too much' is to have a comparison to something that isnt too much. I feel like the typicals are not sensitive enough, as if they are numb. Lights have hurt my eyes since before I could reach the light switch. Problems can be comparisons, expectations, and trying to fit everyone into neat little boxes.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · May 14, 2026

Maybe the world did end in 1999.
It just took the scenic route towards the dead end.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 27, 2026

With awareness comes action.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 24, 2026

Good NEWS!

Regional Center will now cover MY housecleaning laundry and errand transport.

HurraY!

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 23, 2026

They are afraid of me
because I don't fit into their neat little box.
But I was suffocating.
I want to live my own life,
not the subjugated one they have.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 22, 2026

Replying to @GreenRoc@mastodon.social

I put the wrong date on it by accident >.<

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 22, 2026

I feel so good being back into my drawing style.

I play a website game called ovipets, they have a contest for art for a thing that wants to help "Save The Frogs!"

Here's my entry:

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 22, 2026

Medical Question...

Is there a certified name for when my eyes blink changes my visual clarity?

I'm very annoyed. Mostly blurred vision, but a rare occasion everything is crystal clear, so I strain to not blink. But then, I blink, and blurr is back... and sticks around for hours, blink blink, clarity change every blink.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 22, 2026

Replying to @CordiallyChloe@tech.lgbt

@CordiallyChloe@tech.lgbt

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 22, 2026

Replying to @CordiallyChloe@tech.lgbt

@CordiallyChloe@tech.lgbt interesting, I wasn't aware. I have never done jury duty, I have other people who handle my paperwork. I recall just one time I was told that I was being called for jury duty, but by reason of being disabled, I was opted out.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 22, 2026

Replying to @CordiallyChloe@tech.lgbt

@CordiallyChloe@tech.lgbt I probably would have voted for Kamilia, but I dont want jury duty, which is demanded of people who register to vote, as far as I know. I also have an experience of my dad being forced to go to jury duty regardless of his reasons for not going to jury duty, which were some disability he has to fall asleep when bored... which was proven to happen when testing the jurors. The stress of that situation was too much.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 22, 2026

Replying to @GreenRoc@mastodon.social

Everytime I see someone complain about non voters. I get really pissed off. Painful shame with all the crap they say about non-voters. Much crap. Much bullshit. Ableist fuckwads think bad about me when they bitch, in general, about non-voters. I take it personally, and I know that shit isnt true. Every four years, just more bullshit against what I choose to do. I'm choosing self-care dammit. I choose to prevent me from having sensory overload.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 22, 2026

I cant count each time I been misjudged as choosing bad/wrong.

I know myself.
I know I have never wanted to do bad since I was four years old, which was the time I learned the difference between what feels right and good, and what feels bad.

Sadly, I haven't been able to forget my mom disagreeing with my claim that I don't choose to do bad, and she accused me of being malicious.

I was not malicious. I was trying to get something that would make me happy.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 22, 2026

I dont vote for several reasons...
1. I dont trust myself to know the right person to pick.
2. I dont want to do jury duty (dad was forced to go regardless of his disabilities, because he was registered to vote)
3. Paperwork triggers my mental breakdowns.

Basically, I dont vote because of my disabilities.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 22, 2026

I've had a shit ton of bad experiences...
But I dont choose to be mean to someone else.

I'm watching Law and Order Special Victims unit.

Someone who murdered someone shouldn't be excused just because they had a sad life.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 13, 2026

Replying to @GreenRoc@mastodon.social

@faithisleaping@anarres.family Oh now I recall since I posted... My dad never believed me about my food sensitivities, until a friend tricked him with his favorite sugary soda... filled his cup with diet, asked dad how is the soda... Dad did not realize it was diet. And this friend let him know, I could taste the difference.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 13, 2026

Replying to @GreenRoc@mastodon.social

@faithisleaping@anarres.family I offer this to you, If you ever get the chance, ou may tell him what I said about myself. Something that often worked for my dad to understand, when he would not believe me, he would sometimes believe when someone else said the same thing. But he would immediately believe me when it is a certified person to say it. Fought with him for years that cheaper food does not taste the same, often, tasted worse than the more expensive stuff. Good luck.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 13, 2026

Replying to @faithisleaping@anarres.family

@faithisleaping@anarres.family My circadian rhythm is at it's peak at 3am. What I couldnt convince my dad of: I'm autistic, not spoiled. He eventually got the autistic, but last time I ever saw him, he interrupted me special ordering my meal at Dennys, and says "you'll have to forgive my daughter, she has mental problems" I walked out, and went to nearby fast food. He has no patience for my need tomake sure I wont eat food that bothers my body... he didnt get this food pickiness either.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 12, 2026

Replying to @GreenRoc@mastodon.social

@faithisleaping@anarres.family I wish there was more acceptance, I believe trans will be acceptable one day. Much has changed with better knowledge. Society doesn't put people in chains and call them hysterical anymore, nor slap a person's left hand when they are using their dominant hand. Sadly, society isnt willing to accept trans, yet. Thank you for being you! I believe one day, they will stop slapping our hands. Acceptance takes time, and stories like yours. Thank you for sharing.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 12, 2026

Replying to @GreenRoc@mastodon.social

@faithisleaping@anarres.family @faithisleaping@anarres.family I didnt deserve any of that pain, but that pain is placed upon me by a society heavily obsessed with "proper" things. Is trans wrong? May I to compare transitions to tatoos and cosmetic surgery. Christians dont like those three, but transion isn't as accepted as tats and botox. 3/?

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 12, 2026

Replying to @GreenRoc@mastodon.social

@faithisleaping@anarres.family

I knew I didn't like the ideaologies that were placed on women. I didn't wanna wear pants since I was four.

something that wasn’t my fault but that I got punished for

Every punishment I can recall, has to do with a rejection of my autism behaviors. I tell them they are being ableist and hating my autism, but they reject that idea, they didn't hate my autism, they just didn't want me to fidget. They hurt me to my core, emotional pain, verbal abuse. 2/?

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 12, 2026

Replying to @faithisleaping@anarres.family

@faithisleaping@anarres.family >I had to come to terms with the fact that my childhood was abusive and that my parents weren’t actually acting in my best interests. Ditto. Both claimed they loved me, wanted the best for me, to keep me safe frm harm... They didn't know that their unrelenting efforts to make me a 'normal' person was slowly killing me inside. I believe I have lost about 10 years of my lifespan,, and 30 years lost to my dedication to be the girl my parents wanted. 1/?

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 10, 2026

Replying to @joshsusser@autistics.life

@joshsusser They are taller 😏

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 01, 2026

Replying to @GreenRoc@mastodon.social

@minego Screaming releases the most stress for me, but most people punish me if I do, so I try not to do it, to spare me from the stress of the punishments.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 01, 2026

Replying to @minego@pdx.social

@minego I hated stress, but dad said often "That's life, deal with it" He died too young, and I didnt agree with him. The only feelings I got of joy, is my toys, sugar, my drawing/coloring, and watching TV. Parents taking my toys away (consiquences they said), so I couldnt always depend on toys to bring me joy, afraid I would lose them again. I became a hoarder in adulthood. I still dont have enough tools to cope with everyday happenings. Eventually stress builds up and I fall into a stupor.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 01, 2026

Replying to @GreenRoc@mastodon.social

@minego I didnt get a diagnosis of autism until I was in my 20's. Before I was 18, the diagnostic statistics were less refined, and I didnt match what the Diagnostic manual 3 had listed. My whole childhood, not a single therapist could figure out the certifiable name of what was unofficially referred to as "severely emotionally disturbed" I hadnt read the linked article. I read your comment and I'm like.. ME TOO! late diagnosed.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Apr 01, 2026

Replying to @minego@pdx.social

@minego "We get too tired of the stress" yep, and when more sensory bombardment exists more and more than in older times before cars and trains, and the introduction of worldwide generalization of "normal" behaviors, we have become more noticeable by people who have this idea of how people should behave. My parents, had this baby book they had listing the typical ages of baby milestones. I was way off with many, some very early, many were later. Without comparison to others, I'm not deficit.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Mar 28, 2026

Replying to @greenpeace@mastodon.social

@greenpeace@mastodon.social I dont want ads in my videos and games.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Mar 24, 2026

Replying to @minego@pdx.social

@minego Ohhh it looked truly knitted, until I saw the tail! How fun!

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Mar 22, 2026

Replying to @GNUmatic@mastodon.trueten.de

@GNUmatic Oops, I took the joke literally. Nevermind me. Carry on.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Mar 22, 2026

Replying to @GNUmatic__dup_33401@mastodon.trueten.de

@GNUmatic I would like a translator from English-allistic to English-Autistic. I wish Noise-cancelling cancels all sounds. The worst sound around me is one that an Airpod cant cancel... dog barks. Related: I literally have to give a friend "Durable Power of Attourney" so she can speak on my behalf to get over HIPAA barriers. While translators for NT to ND do not exist in a certifiable form. Hippa is for security, but it is so tight, it gets in my way for my needed disability accmidations.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Mar 20, 2026

Replying to @faithisleaping@anarres.family

@faithisleaping@anarres.family Interesting! Bookmarking that. I know how to get stuff notarized, done it at my bank across the street about two times. I can handle a third.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Mar 18, 2026

Replying to @faithisleaping@anarres.family

@faithisleaping@anarres.family I'm in California, but dont worry about helping here. I should just contact my social worker.

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Green Roc Thoughts @GreenRoc@mastodon.social · Mar 18, 2026

Replying to @faithisleaping@anarres.family

@faithisleaping@anarres.family I appreciate the kind thoughts, thank you. I do have some support people around, but I keep forgetting to ask them to help. I'll try to remember someday.

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