@RealRaul@poa.st
my instance or some thing doesn't let me scroll back more than 1 day in history so i can't reply to the original post, but i was about to wack off to this picture 10 times in a row that you posted a few days ago but then i noticed it is fake.. her thumb is way too far back on one hand, the other hand is doing weird stuff like morphing and turning in to dragon claws, and the lines on the building in the background aren't even straight (and part of roof is gone)..
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@sun@shitposter.world @noyoushutthefuckupdad@shitposter.world @colonelj@ryona.agency @lich@nightshift.social @thomasroiloup@shitposter.world @lebronjames75@shitposter.world @kernow@clubcyberia.co @ctr@clubcyberia.co @zer0unplanned
this is a 2D skit i made back when i used to have my youtube channel.. every role is my voice.. it's a short-style (meaning vertical) video..
the cool thing about the 2D skits i made is that i actually i built (coded) my own animation editor back in november of 2024.. it took me about 2 months of constant daily programming to get it in to a working alpha state that i could use, and then i started using it to make these skits.. i made the animation editor using Godot.. the reason i decided to make my own animation editor was because i got so sick of how hard it was in video/animation editors to animate things that SHOULD be simple, but they all want to make you use the keyframe system, and it's janky as hell.. And so the revolutionary thing about the animation editor that i made is that it DOES NOT use keyframes; instead it records your mouse movements in real-time, so all you have to do is just move your mouse like how you want the item to animate and it records it in real-time.. and then you record the next aspect.. it's kind of similar to when you record a music track but each time you are recording a different instrument.. In this animation editor some times the mouse would be controlling position of an item/character, and then you record the rotation next, or scale, or color shift, etc.. and each run is completely controlled by your mouse.. so any way, when you see this video of sugarbear's past, all the animation/movement and color effects etc were done using my own animation editor i made..
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do you need some good suicide tips? you don't have to keep being in this world either if you don't want to (i'm being facetious)..
you went through a lot more than i would have been able to.. that sounds like a hard life that you had to navigate through and it's kind of miraculous that you are still here and every thing..
even though other people go through struggles much worse than mine though it still doesn't really help my own situation out much.. my situation isn't nearly as bad as all the stuff you've had to make it through, but i still just feel tired and done with this life.. i don't want to live to 80 or 70 or 60 or even 50.. i'll be fine once i'm in spirit world, and won't be suffering any longer.. it's the humans still left on this planet that have to keep suffering.. it's not really a fun world to be in for most people..
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i know.. i can't stay though.. i've already been through so many years of postponing things, where i tell my self (and my best online friend i always talk to) "okay i'll wait one more year".. and i've been saying that for like 10 years now it seems.. it's just time to bite the bullet finally.. i don't want to postpone things any longer.. i'm tired.. let a man suicide bomb him self in peace for once..
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this is the intro to a show i was wanting to make called Double Shift.. it was going to be about some office but a paranormal twist where there is like a portal in their office where they can transport to an alternate version of the world and they do tasks for various random clients that come in to the office and request stuff.. all the roles are me of course since i don't have any friends.. oh yeah and it was going to be kind of funny and comedic a little bit (and hopefully not too cringe).. XYakZ was the name i was using on my youtube channel..
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the ringing doesn't even really bother me any more since i habituated to it a long time ago.. the only time it bothers me is if it gets loud from when i expose my ears to sounds that are medium or loud in volume for too long.. my ringing gets loud in those situations but will go back to normal volume in a few hours or days.. as long as the ringing stays at normal volume then i don't even notice it..
but my ears are really sensitive to noise though, and so things that help people with tinnitus usually like pink noise or white noise or ocean sounds etc don't really help me because those sounds just bother my ears and start making the ringing louder..
my brain damage is much more of an issue for my life sucking these days..
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my life started out great and just slowly got worse and worse over time..
the two major things that make my life hell is the ear problem i have (sensitive ears i always have to protect and constant ear-ringing (tinnitus)), and the severe brain damage that happened from the stroke i had in 2020.... and umm, usually people my age don't have strokes but i was doing some thing EXTREMELY RETARDED and caused the stroke my self.. literally the worst mistake of my life..
and so those things have no cures.. my brain did get a little better for about a year and then plateaued.. it causes all sorts of problems like i can't focus, can't read fast, i make lots of typoes (i correct them before i send things out), i have dyslexia now, coding/programming is a chore now when it used to be fun..
and then i have lot of smaller problems like i don't like being this old, and some other things..
i'm not scared of death or any thing.. i believe in lots of crazy stuff like spirit world and reincarnation (optional; not mandatory) and other stuff..
so, i don't know what to tell you or any one else.. i've been planning on ending my suffering for like 10 years and i kept postponing it over and over and over.. but it's some thing that needs to be done.. i'm tired of living with a damaged brain and always having to protect my ears.. i can't even shower with out earplugs because the water is too loud.. my life has been a nightmare for so long now (the ear problem started back around age 30) and i'm just tired and worn out.. i can't do this any more.. i don't need to be here any more.. and yeah it's always sad when people have to leave this world.. but i can't live for other people.. i've got to eventually think of my self and give my own self some relief here..
i appreciate you guys though and i'm glad you gave me an account on this thing.. it's a nice fast server and i appreciate it using the media proxy so people's IPs aren't leaked to every other instance they touch..
i might upload a few of my stupid cringe skits i made back when i was trying to make it big on youtube (i deleted my channel several months ago though when i was in a negative mood; i kind of regret that now because it makes it hard to show people stuff with out sending them my stuff directly now)..
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i could have kept paying rent if i wanted to.. so having a place to live isn't really the problem.. being evicted was just part of my plan for winding down my life..
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i intentionally stopped paying rent.. i could have kept paying it.. so it isn't a matter of not having a place to stay in.. it's that my life is over so now i have to find a way to exit out of it..
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i'm not living in a motherfucking homeless shelter.. being dead is literally better than that.. i have standards that need to be met for my life..
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yeah i know.. i don't really talk closely with the fediverse people here; i'm usually on matrix chat rooms.. but i figured i should post some thing on here before i leave this world so people don't just wonder what happened to me..
my life is a big complicated mess.. i'm old, i have uncurable conditions like ear problems where my ears are super sensitive (and i have permanent tinnitus), and i had a stroke in 2020 that caused severe brain damage (not joking).. and i'm poor and my family is dead and now my mom and all my friends have left and so it's like what the hell am i even doing here?.. by the way no one can convince me not to do it.. but i'm fucking old any way (44 years old).. i never wanted to be this fracking old.. so any way, i purposely stopped paying rent and the court has an eviction thing against me now and the sheriff put a notice on my house today saying they are going to forcefully evict me in a few days.. and obviously i'm not going to be homeless.. but this was the plan (not paying rent).. i could have kept paying it but it's time for me to stop my suffering on this planet, you know?..
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i wanted to post some pictures of my family before i end up dying here shortly.. my mom died about 1.5 years ago (in 2025) and i'll be with her very shortly.. i'll type in the alt text thing so you can hover your mouse over the picture to see who people are i guess..
it's kind of sad that all of my family is dead now; every one in these pictures is dead now except me, and if you are reading this from the year 3000 then i'm already dead too.. RIP my self..
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lol she is AI-generated.. it's from an account that posts AI girls.. Even look at the name, "AI gen"
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lol i wish.. i had to keep retrying the renders because grok would already censor it half the time.. lots of people want an uncensored mode on it but it will probably never happen, and i don't have like $10,000 to make an AI server that can render stuff locally..
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i hesitated for a while before deciding to ask this but i decided to ask any way so i don't regret not asking later..
is there any way i could implore you two to repeat this post some how so your billions of followers can see it? i don't post tons of stuff on fediverse much (i mostly lurk) and so i hardly have any followers, but like a week ago i played around with AI a bit for the first time and so of course i decided i want to make scenes with jap girls with big boobies that are breaking lots of stuff and i kept making more scenes on it because it was kind of fun and then i got it to the point where i was thinking "i want to show people this thing i made" because some how even though i was just playing around i ended up kind of liking what i made..
i posted it several days ago and like no one saw it because i have hardly any followers.. it just sat there and no one knows it even exists.. and so when i thought just now of who i could ask to repeat it (i don't know many people on fediverse) only you two came to mind as people who might be maybe interested in some thing like this..
it's okay if you guys don't want to repeat it..
Some notes:
● i wanted eng voices and eng subtitles (since some times grok doesn't do their audio lines right) but on that dinner scene it shows a line of japanese text (grok decided to do that on his own) but i didn't bother redoing the scene and instead told it more strictly to be in english from now on..
● even eng subtitles fucked up over time so eventually i got rid of any subs at all after the museum scene
● the last thing i added to it was actually the intro, to see how much i could make it look like it is going to be an actual show or some thing
● the girls aren't always rendered consistently; some times their face looks different, or height (they look like midgets in the zoo scene) and their boobs change size too some times..
● i know the ending kind of blows but i couldn't think of any thing better and didn't want to spend tons of time thinking about a story line for a non-serious project
● i made this with Grok Imagine
● there are a few more short videos of the kyouko girl on my feed right now like her in goth outfit..
and i know it is weird that a person yaps as much as i do but this is literally how i normally speak on the internet; i'm just verbose by nature (also known as autism)..
thank you for your time, and have a nice day :apika_sheep:
i hesitated for a while before deciding to ask this but i decided to ask any way so i don't regret not asking later..
is there any way i could implore you two to repeat this post some how so your billions of followers can see it? i don't post tons of stuff on fediverse much (i mostly lurk) and so i hardly have any followers, but like a week ago i played around with AI a bit for the first time and so of course i decided i want to make scenes with jap girls with big boobies that are breaking lots of stuff and i kept making more scenes on it because it was kind of fun and then i got it to the point where i was thinking "i want to show people this thing i made" because some how even though i was just playing around i ended up kind of liking what i made..
i posted it several days ago and like no one saw it because i have hardly any followers.. it just sat there and no one knows it even exists.. and so when i thought just now of who i could ask to repeat it (i don't know many people on fediverse) only you two came to mind as people who might be maybe interested in some thing like this..
it's okay if you guys don't want to repeat it..
Some notes:
● i wanted eng voices and eng subtitles (since some times grok doesn't do their audio lines right) but on that dinner scene it shows a line of japanese text (grok decided to do that on his own) but i didn't bother redoing the scene and instead told it more strictly to be in english from now on..
● even eng subtitles fucked up over time so eventually i got rid of any subs at all after the museum scene
● the last thing i added to it was actually the intro, to see how much i could make it look like it is going to be an actual show or some thing
● the girls aren't always rendered consistently; some times their face looks different, or height (they look like midgets in the zoo scene) and their boobs change size too some times..
● i know the ending kind of blows but i couldn't think of any thing better and didn't want to spend tons of time thinking about a story line for a non-serious project
● i made this with Grok Imagine
● there are a few more short videos of the kyouko girl on my feed right now like her in goth outfit..
and i know it is weird that a person yaps as much as i do but this is literally how i normally speak on the internet; i'm just verbose by nature (also known as autism)..
thank you for your time, and have a nice day :apika_sheep:
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This is her wikipedia:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lulu_Garcia-Navarro
It says that her parents are cuban and panama.
she might be shabbos goy then..
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"Lower pH is correlated with lower diversity"
wow i guess diversity really does mean non-white
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is china or russia using iranian ports?..
and if china/russia wants to use iranian ports, what does USA expect them to do to be able to pass?..
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were the 2 sides actually negotiating directly or some thing?..
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as if he is legally bombing iran
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lol, maybe for THEIR operation it will be
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