avaelin :v_trans: :v_lesbian:

avaelin@tech.lgbt

I like linguistics, reading about history, making music, and playing retro games. I mostly shitpost or rant about game stuff. Or being sad. I make music. You can stream it all free on Bandcamp. It’s mostly for me but I love to share it. I’m a DJ, though I mostly perform online these days. I used to play the trumpet. I still play the piano and the harp, both poorly. I love them nonetheless.You can poke me on Discord, Matrix, LINE, Signal. I love talking about music, retro games, and linguistics. I also enjoy being everyone’s mom friend and telling bad jokes.💙💜<a href="https://ko-fi.com/avaelin" target="_blank" rel="nofollow noopener" translate="no">https://ko-fi.com/avaelin</a>

Posts

Post #3473077
The unedited, mistakes included, live set for the Trevor Project fundraiser I spun for on Friday (June 26 2026). Have a listen if you like and have never made over to any of my streams or venues! #dj #livemixing #djmix https://soundcloud.com/avaelin/trevor-project-fundraiser-set
Post #1662156
Why are Dualsense controllers $75 ughhhhhhhh
Post #1151090
pizza deez
Post #439414
Mondays I try to do some work even though I keep my calendar as free as possible. I have barely managed to do anything other than take a brief shower and eat a little. I&#39;m trying to tell myself that it&#39;s okay to have another day of rest and to not work. If only so I don&#39;t burn myself out intensely as I seem to do.
Post #439413
I have sort of intentionally not done anything about how I speak and continue to use the same voice I&#39;ve had since it dropped decades ago. I haven&#39;t really changed my speech patterns or anything. HOWEVER I have been trying to un-masc my Japanese seeing as when I was living there in my 20s it was as a man and with other men as my primary resources. When I hear myself speak it bums me out in a way my masc English voice does not. Not looking for advice or suggestions. Just kin...
Post #439412
Fix your heart or die
Post #439411
In the state I live in I require two notarized affidavits of character to change my name/gender marker along with everything else. Mine are being provided by exes who I dated before I even knew I was trans. It got me wondering for those who have a more tedious process like this, is this a sorta normal occurrence?
Post #439410
I guess my housemate&#39;s boyfriend snores. Loud enough for me to hear it multiple rooms away too.
Post #439409
I think I need to fully disconnect from the social/club scene in FF. I&#39;ll keep DJing it but the last several months anytime I need to engage as a venue owner or function with people in that space I walk away totally wiped out and just fully exhausted. It&#39;s sad but to be real, a lot of these people are closeted in some way and this is their whole life. They bring the drama of people who are figuring themselves out without support systems and I just can&#39;t handle the load. I...
Post #439408
@ezlin yeah the whole scene isn&#39;t like that, but a lot of it is. I don&#39;t participate in it. I&#39;m in a DJ collective and venue people can book us and I&#39;m playing 2-4 gigs a week which is plenty. But I just can&#39;t deal with those people anymore. It&#39;s too much. And I&#39;ve worked with enough venues to know that they usually all shake out the same way. I&#39;m proud to say that the two venues I&#39;ve run in the last 5 years stayed away from...
Post #439407
@ezlin I love my community and I still love playing FF so it sounds like it wasn&#39;t as bad for me but yeah. I&#39;ve just decided to excise that chunk and fill the time and energy doing other things that I actually love.
Post #439406
Everytime I&#39;m enjoying a drama of some variety and love triangles and toxic monogamy rolls up reinforced with misogyny and assorted nonsense it really tends to sour it for me. I&#39;m just sitting there like hey team, you are the problem in this episode actually. The call is coming from inside the house. Straights, are you okay? Blink if you&#39;re being held under duress.
Post #439405
Banging my head trying to get more students. I haven&#39;t been able to find any since the end of last summer that want to meet regularly. I&#39;ve only lost some. And this is despite really excellent ratings on both platforms I can be rated on. I&#39;m deeply frustrated.
Post #439404
I updated the picture I use for tutoring on one service after discovering that after they made changes to their profiles for tutors, my whole profile was totally mangled, looked like it was formatted by an insane person, and my profile picture was inverted and sideways. It&#39;s been like that for I don&#39;t know how long now. Anyway I changed it to this picture (background dimmed/removed) and now their feedback is &#39;try a warmer smile and a bit better grooming&#39;. Glad to...
Post #439403
Having a real &#39;this batch of gummies are really weak this time around, I&#39;ll just have one on an empty stomach this time and wait where am I?&#39; moment.
Post #439402
If one more person says &#39;well why don&#39;t you just x&#39; about anything to me today i am going to lose my fucking mind.