Post #439409

2026-02-14 15:05 UTC

I think I need to fully disconnect from the social/club scene in FF. I&#39;ll keep DJing it but the last several months anytime I need to engage as a venue owner or function with people in that space I walk away totally wiped out and just fully exhausted. It&#39;s sad but to be real, a lot of these people are closeted in some way and this is their whole life. They bring the drama of people who are figuring themselves out without support systems and I just can&#39;t handle the load. I&#39;m an actualized person, who is living their life outside of that scene because I couldn&#39;t be that person only in a game or on Discord. And now that I can live it everywhere, it&#39;s just so exhausting dealing with the drama and the nonsense that people bring to that space. I&#39;m still gonna DJ clubs, but I&#39;m fully disconnecting from the venue nightlife game. I just can&#39;t. I want to pour myself into my actual life as the real me, messy mall goth alt girl that I am.

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@avaelin@tech.lgbt 2026-02-14 15:14

To be clear, I am not saying that people who can only express themselves in that space are lesser. What I am saying is that they are trying to sort out a lot of stuff. Their lives can be rough and often that energy and those hangups get brought into venue and social group relations, and I just can't deal with it personally because I have my own mental fragility that I have to consider and deal with, being currently unmedicated because I am a poor person in the US in 2026. When something hits my mental issues it can knock me out of commission for days. And I need to separate myself for my own sanity and well-being. I would never have cracked or figured my shit out with that community but now that I have done, it's just not for me anymore.

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