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Jessie

Asuyuia@toot.cat

<p>I am a spider in a web. I am trying to make my life my own, I just want to be happy and I am so much closer than I was before. I read, I write and I play some games. I still need to get a life really. However it is one step at a time, one day at a time.</p><p>Just remember the chain that links you to the past can be broken at any time, I last broke mine on 22/09/2023 and I am not looking back...</p><p>I was depressed for over two decades, it can get better. I believe in you.</p>

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  • Post #3871725

    I had someone say &quot;I don&#39;t believe in depression&quot;, yes there was a language barrier, yes there was a bit more talk and yes that was such a fucking massive red flag I walked away. I burnt bridges with them and the rest of the group (they were admin). It was a clan in a game (which I left at the same time) and I won&#39;t likely ever seen any of them again. Discord without age verification (not doing that, fuck that) most likely doesn&#39;t allow any of them to reach out to me. Non...

  • Post #3795227

    Another counselling session finished and it makes me think as always. I always feel like that few moments after thoughts can come up a lot. The idea of having an island and what I would want only for them to point out I don&#39;t mention people. Isolated, peaceful, safe... I&#39;m isolated and I know I need to get out there but just the fact I need to do it is always a problem. I mean my first excuse is always cost, weather more than anything else, even transportation is cost. I get them push...

  • Post #3741647

    I might not be worthy of love, I might not be able to love, heck I might not even have lust or a desire for sex beyond maybe wanting to just feel some deep meaningful connection for someone that doesn&#39;t exist... I guess this is where you expect me to give a positive about me or for me but no, I&#39;ve got nothing. Honestly I think I am okay at the moment it is just... I know I&#39;m broken and working on it and I know self worth is a part of it, not tying my value to what I do for others...

  • Post #3690012

    So what did I do today with all my unfinished stories? I started another one -.- Yes I have problems, yes I keep making them worse but umm ideas!