Post #3741647
2026-07-11 13:11 UTC
I might not be worthy of love, I might not be able to love, heck I might not even have lust or a desire for sex beyond maybe wanting to just feel some deep meaningful connection for someone that doesn't exist...
I guess this is where you expect me to give a positive about me or for me but no, I've got nothing.
Honestly I think I am okay at the moment it is just...
I know I'm broken and working on it and I know self worth is a part of it, not tying my value to what I do for others but having value in myself. Hopefully it will come in time with help from counselling but I can't say, all I can say for now is...
I'm okay.
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@Asuyuia@toot.cat 2026-07-11 13:24
Just had a thought about love etc because I was talking about a character in a showI started to watch yesterday so I will put it here (while applying it to myself more). Maybe love isn't possible because it is a vulnerability but I have learnt I have to keep strong, to keep my heart closed, to not let my emotions show and always be that fortress. I have built a wall around my heart that I still am struggling to break down. Maybe that is why I can't love. I can't just let my guard down and be safe. I can't expose anything of myself...