Post #4076010

Me from three years ago would have thought that me from today was full of shit when I told her that: She would be working a patron-facing job in a libraryShe would LOVE the social interactionShe would always be gendered correctly by everyone At the time, I thought I was basically introverted (I was, because masking took a lot of cognitive energy). I thought that computer touching was the best career because I didn't have to interact with people very often. And I thought there was no way that I could ever look like the woman I knew I was inside. Turns out that I was actually a slight extrovert when the masking came off, and have more energy after a day of interacting with coworkers and patrons than I do in the morning. And it turns out that I actually didn't particularly like my software jobs over the years, and craved a care-based job helping actual people. And between estrogen, hair, makeup, and confidence, being gendered correctly ended up being a non-issue eventually. Transition is wild. And honestly? I would have been shaking my damn head at myself if I had told me from two years ago, and even me from one year ago these things. The first two years were just figuring out this whole transition thing, and the last year has been learning about who I am and what I want out of life. I'm looking forward to the next year, where maybe I start living out those desires and dreams, finally. For the first time.