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2026-07-13 23:09 UTC
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@Asuyuia@toot.cat 2026-07-14 00:31
@SleepyCatten@cultofshiv.wtf Sometimes I have the same with friends where we talk through stuff but I will confess it is quite different when you are paying for it and they have a range of knowledge. It's just that sometimes the answers don't feel the most possible. I mean sure I can see just how fucked up I am and how things go. Even the counsellor can see how I hide away from people. I think they gave me every chance to talk about how if I had my own fantasy island and what brings me joy that I should want people too. I mean they pointed out my smiling about the idea of a peaceful log cabin with a warm fire in a snowy place, the idea of quiet, peaceful but never people... I really couldn't even imagine a safe place having people directly there until asked about it. The scars run deep and even my family have hurt me with aggression. I have to work on that, open a door I would rather keep shut. It's hard to image people directly in my life, face to face, kind of caring... :hugging: