Post #2820625

2026-05-24 00:12 UTC

@oldladyplays@wargamers.social I'll try in english for those here who want to read it without knowing french language. Beware of my mistakes in grammar en voc (it is okay to correct me. I'll ask for it, it can make me progress) To understand the following very big text : I am a trans man, non binary (agender) But if I am out as trans with a very few IRL people, none of them know about my Non-binarity. Or they know about nothing (just I am a man "like them" in their point of view) Or they know I am a trans man, nothing more. My joy start with some negative thoughts: since autumn 2015 about, my "Roommate" and I are isolated from queer association or queer community. For us, it is only here, online and it is far far far from beeing enough. (But it's better than nothing, thabk you all for being here. Really.) And I think I lost my "transness" I mean, we are still aware to be trans, but, I, I spoke only for me, not for her, I forget often that I am trans I forget I am a man, for people around us. I forget I am not "supposed" to be a little girl when younger I forget that part of my identity It is a very complicated state because, I know, I am aware to be careful to not speak about me as "when I was a little girl" And, in the same time, I no longer feel being trans. I don't know if it means something. We are very very isolated. We love where we live but : lonely (about queerness) 1/ ?

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@poupou24_@peculiar.florist 2026-05-24 00:28

@oldladyplays@wargamers.social -- Sometimes, people like you, on the internet ask us about something about us, about that thing that make us trans, or queer (and same sometimes about disabilities or other stuff like that) Sometimes I read the comments/answers because I am mentally okay to appreciate others' joy And that reminds me that I am "like them", those who answers to you, or to the people like you that ask that kind of questions I started my questions about my identity in 2014, middle of the year. April-may 2014. So 12 years ago and a month I have forgot all about this I started my first coming out May 17th 2014 (yes, the questions-quest was very quick) So exactly 12 years ago I remember each brutal words my mom told me after that, and all the consequences that followed it. I remember the second coming-out, 25th january 2015, and I remember only a part of the consequences of it. I started my HRT on February 2015 So 11 years ago and 3 months I remember the first injection. Nothing much more. I had the privilege to have my top surgery on November 2015 (in a time when only 2 surgeons were safe in France) So 10 years ago and half I remember a part of it (thank to my blog site I wrote at this time) And I change my name officially in early 2017 I think or 2018 ? (I lost a lot of my memory because of a medication) So about 9 years or 8 years ago. I don't remember much 2/ ?

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@oldladyplays@wargamers.social 2026-05-24 00:22

@poupou24_@peculiar.florist Oh, my friend. I'm sorry, that sounds really hard. I lived without trans community until October 22, for various reasons. It was so hard and isolating. The change since then...so, so huge. I can't wait for the joy to come, though. :)

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@faithisleaping@anarres.family 2026-05-24 02:41

@poupou24_@peculiar.florist Je comprends. C'est pareil pour moi, mais dans l'autre sens. @oldladyplays@wargamers.social

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