Post #2820624

2026-05-24 00:28 UTC

@oldladyplays@wargamers.social -- Sometimes, people like you, on the internet ask us about something about us, about that thing that make us trans, or queer (and same sometimes about disabilities or other stuff like that) Sometimes I read the comments/answers because I am mentally okay to appreciate others' joy And that reminds me that I am "like them", those who answers to you, or to the people like you that ask that kind of questions I started my questions about my identity in 2014, middle of the year. April-may 2014. So 12 years ago and a month I have forgot all about this I started my first coming out May 17th 2014 (yes, the questions-quest was very quick) So exactly 12 years ago I remember each brutal words my mom told me after that, and all the consequences that followed it. I remember the second coming-out, 25th january 2015, and I remember only a part of the consequences of it. I started my HRT on February 2015 So 11 years ago and 3 months I remember the first injection. Nothing much more. I had the privilege to have my top surgery on November 2015 (in a time when only 2 surgeons were safe in France) So 10 years ago and half I remember a part of it (thank to my blog site I wrote at this time) And I change my name officially in early 2017 I think or 2018 ? (I lost a lot of my memory because of a medication) So about 9 years or 8 years ago. I don't remember much 2/ ?

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@poupou24_@peculiar.florist 2026-05-24 00:43

@oldladyplays@wargamers.social -- It is hard to realise all the things I did to become what and who I am It is hard to understand how did I do all of this. I mean, I am afraid, nowadays, to do a little surgery. How could I get a top surgery ? It is a big surgery. I am so exhausted about administrative stuff. How did I do all the stuff to change my name and gender on paper ?? To do the "normal admin stuff" when my face didn't match with my girly former name ? I am so exhausted about everything in life (mostly because disabled). How did I do all the identity quests ? How did I survive the second puberty ? (When the first was a nightmare) How did I survive against my "family's" queerphobia TWO TIME (and the last one during the whole 8 years) ? Where did I found the strength and bravery (courage?) to tell my parents I no longer want them in my life ? I don't know, I don't remember all of this BUT I know this is me. I know I did this I was not alone each time, my "roommate" was here each fucking second of all the steps I made. Sometime I had friends. Many times we were alone. But I know it was my body, my mind, my questions, my identity 3/?

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