Post #2820623

2026-05-24 00:43 UTC

@oldladyplays@wargamers.social -- It is hard to realise all the things I did to become what and who I am It is hard to understand how did I do all of this. I mean, I am afraid, nowadays, to do a little surgery. How could I get a top surgery ? It is a big surgery. I am so exhausted about administrative stuff. How did I do all the stuff to change my name and gender on paper ?? To do the "normal admin stuff" when my face didn't match with my girly former name ? I am so exhausted about everything in life (mostly because disabled). How did I do all the identity quests ? How did I survive the second puberty ? (When the first was a nightmare) How did I survive against my "family's" queerphobia TWO TIME (and the last one during the whole 8 years) ? Where did I found the strength and bravery (courage?) to tell my parents I no longer want them in my life ? I don't know, I don't remember all of this BUT I know this is me. I know I did this I was not alone each time, my "roommate" was here each fucking second of all the steps I made. Sometime I had friends. Many times we were alone. But I know it was my body, my mind, my questions, my identity 3/?

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@poupou24_@peculiar.florist 2026-05-24 01:02

@oldladyplays@wargamers.social -- I can't realise how much it is hard, it is a unique long journey. I mean, there are a lot of people in the world that had a journey very similar to mine. But. How many got the SAME path ? None How many feel the same ? A LOT I am pretty sure that, everything I am writing right know means something to someone. And will mean something to someone in 2 days or 2 years or 20 years. Because we all have differents paths that leads here. That's end here for today. And it will ends somewhere else tomorrow, and each day, again and again, and again. Each journey and/or paths we cross Each choice we made was entirely different for everyone of us, but the same too. Something made you make that choice. But the questions were the same : Who am I ? Do I need this to feel better ? Can I do this ? I choose to make this little step maybe to see how I feel about this. We are unique. We live an unique way to explore ourselves We live something totally unique from cis people But we are all in the same way : We are transfolks, we live the same kind of journey We all know what it means for most of us We all know that the choice we made make the difference. We all understand what it means for us to choose to do the first step of this path 4/ ?

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@oldladyplays@wargamers.social 2026-05-24 00:45

@poupou24_@peculiar.florist (listens quietly, sitting near you for comfort)

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