i've been doing a bit of reflection on how my life is bricked and

the majority of my followers are in early their early twenties/late teens, this post is specifically targeted towards you

you might have a career in mind, you might not. it might be complicated to get there, you may need to do way more work

but don't compromise on what you want to do. we all have some vague idea of what we love doing, what our passions are.

for me that was physics, and astrophysics. not because space is pretty but because the math genuinely looked fun to me.

but i was blocked from it, discouraged. meanwhile my dad encouraged me to do programming. he shaped me into the kind of workaholic "10x engineer" that silicon valley used to dream of. it was a fad. my entire career is built on the promise of the tomorrow that never came for a person that i am not.

and i failed at it. i am jobless, unhireable as a swe.

i could've been unhireable as a physicist.

so if you're going to risk failing at something, risk failing at something you love doing. don't take the "safe" path that someone else chose for you because it's not actually safer. it's only more miserable.