you know why i forgive people even if they have seriously fucked me up?

i learned around... ten years ago that hating someone, like truly "i would dance on their grave" hating someone was eating away at my ability to empathize with people.

my hatred for my first ex became a part of me, cheating on me with my best friend wrecked me for four years. it fucked with my ability to trust people, it boxed me into a bubble where i started to just resent things.

four years of just resentment, not realizing it was oozing out of me like tar and latching onto friends and family.

once i realized that i started working on learning what forgiveness is and how to implement it.

it took another nine years until i managed to properly process through this.

but nowadays i can't find a piece of me to actually hate something or someone anymore.