Unfortunately, if I read any text about anarchy it will only lead me further away from what anarchy actually is. That’s the nature of the beast.

No it isn’t, you’re inventing a concept and believing it to be the concept.

And now you’ve made my point about power and control for me. Anarchy is freedom and liberation. Here you are using it as an intellectual prison.

No, I am discussing anarchism the concept as it has evolved over time and has actually existed in real life, even if only for short periods. You’ve invented a brand new ideology that rejects itself as such and undermines its own premise.

And my point is that your idea of anarchy that’s ‘evolved over time’ and has ‘actually existed in real life’ is antithetical to what anarchy actually is. You’ve confused yourself by over intellectualizing the concept.

No, you’ve confused yourself by dogmatically extrapolating what you think anarchy is from vibes and conjecture.

Yes. And if you have a problem with that, you don’t get anarchy.

I don’t want anarchy, I’m a communist. That doesn’t mean I can afford to invent strawmen to argue against, I take anarchism seriously precisely because I don’t agree with it. I evaluate it on its own merits and theory, not by my own invented strawman.