Post #4460929

Please let me out of here Please I can't stand it Everything is wrong Everything. No matter what I say results in being yelled at, being threatened to be abandoned alone in the flat, having to watch her hit her head into things Nothing works. I tried saying nothing, I tried apologizing (every form of it) but she insists on hurting me I don't have clothes on so I can't leave We don't have deodorant Only she knows where clothes are Getting rid of the lice would require her to time it at the same time as me, which is impossible, so I have been stuck here alone since June I can't do it anymore. Someone save me please. Or I'm ending it. This by itself would've been bad enough but I could last. But the love of my life abandoned me yesterday, also without telling me why besides "it can't work". So now my CPTSD is back. I'm back in the mental state I was in November, when I tried to kill myself. But it's worse. Nobody to save me anymore. Nobody left. So, just another one bites the dust. Maybe a mutual is left. That will save me. But I doubt it. It was a good run, everyone. But the being thrown away, and the gf I live with treating me like trash most of the time... I'm also supposed to work. And take care of her, on top of her treating me like trash. And clean the apartment. And handle other paperwork. Honestly? She who threw me away was why I kept going. But she threw me away now. So now, why keep going? No point. I will keep going whilst there is still a path forward. But after that? It's a goodbye. Yes, you can consider it snuff if it makes you horny. You know who you are.