Post #4453156

I ignored all of the red flags that I could see coming a mile away Because I bet all or nothing on this relationship. All or nothing. And clearly, I bet wrong. Now my CPTSD is back. I am not surviving this for long. If I make it to 40C3 it'll be a miracle. I need to meet new entities. Asap. Get more friends. So that I'm not alone. But I doubt that's gonna work. Been trying for years. So, I will die soon. This was my last try. Hope you're happy. Sticking to your decisions. But never telling them to my face. Never talking about them. We never could've talked out any of it. Come to the conclusion we're incompatible by ourselves, together. I had to get the 2 days of ghosting paid back to me then be thrown away without ever really being told why. Without a chance to fix any wrongs I've done. See, it is always like this. Pick an unsuspecting BPD girl. Shower her with love. When you don't like anything, never tell her. Just wait until you can't take it anymore and throw her away. That way, she will blame herself for all of it, and you can rinse and repeat 🥰