Post #4131388

2026-07-27 07:02 UTC

- hearing about the philosophy of the farm and how the owner used to be a teacher, and everything they do with kids from special needs schools..... it really hit me like a truck and couldn't stop myself crying a bit in the circle... then afterwards i walked away and [just] weeped my arse off. i think it was a moment where i really mourned myself leaving teaching, and i felt so angry about how i feel like i was forced to leave. but i was so happy to hear everything the owner was saying, and i was pleased that i had made it to this place. hannes caught me crying at the hills and walked with me and cheered me up

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@TodePond@mas.to 2026-07-27 07:08

- and then....... all the mindfulness stuff we did in deep listening and then peter's workshop ALSO hit me like a truck. i didn't expect it to be so 'triggering' of some nasty memories but i think i had been worn down by the school thing and so it caught me off guard. i was almost gonna take myself out for a break during both those sessions but i managed to keep my composure. and it was so so so so nice to do an activity like this in a completely different scenario: in a group setting (not in isolation), surrounded by people who i trust / who have got my back, as a performance outside together (not a retreat inside)... both workshops were absolutely beautiful. i feel like i've discovered something really magic / important and i can't wait to completely dive into it now that I'm back

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