Post #4100511

2026-07-25 23:22 UTC

The problem with the world right now, for me at least, is that everything comes down to numbers instead of people. And for me, nothing about numbers ever really makes sense. There's is no "correct" number. But when you can sit with a person and share experiences and inhabit a little of the same world for a moment, that makes life worth while. And the great appeal of YouTube for me, was the idea that maybe you can share something nice with lots of people. But most of the feedback is just more numbers. 4/

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@ewen@social.ewenbell.com 2026-07-25 23:34

It's possible that I'm on a better path to future things, and just haven't climbed out of the valley yet. I can't see the big view yet. But it's possible I'm still climbing out instead of just lost. We shall see. I am on a different path at least. That much I know. I've got better skills now than I had a year ago. I'm better at keeping my stutter under control than ever before in my life. I have tried and failed at a lot of things, so that narrows down the list of future failures, having already been there. I can't recall a time in my life when I felt less certain about the future. Which is strange. I've been through so much chaos and uncertainty in my life, and yet the year 2026 is the definition of uncertainty. When I was younger I didn't realise how chaotic the world really is. But I do now. I'm very aware of the forces at play, but still unable to do much about them. 5/

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