Post #3954830

I turn on Facebook or YouTube and see kids who are 22 or 23 talk about being late bloomers because they didn't transition until they were 21. God I feel so ancient. I didn't even think about this before 38, 39. I'm 43 and I don't feel like I've done a lot with my transition and I'm not sure what else I could have done. I slightly regret my orchi - suddenly, it sounds nice to have kids. I didn't really make real life friends until just literally THIS YEAR, despite years of trying. It feels almost like I've been living in a dream while I grew older. And it's not entirely my generation - I've met kids who are 20-something and have been transitioning for 10, 15 years. Jesus, I only even knew this was **possible** five minutes before my egg cracked. Suddenly, I look around and realize I'm often the oldest or second oldest one in the room. Did I really spend the last four years waiting to leave this town, not knowing why I never had money (as the wife was secretly wasting it), just slowly aging to death and playing video games??? Ugh.