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@scarlet@plush.city I am now making an "ordered retreat" where I plan to be abroad by a year from as soon as I get a remote job, if not sooner. I am heartbroken at the idea of having to leave my beautiful home I put so much effort into. However I recognize my stress is not sustainable, and it is eerily reminiscent of the stress pre transition. Where I had big problems I could not begin to articulate or solve and so I boiled myself in stress which mired me in stagnation. Not this time, I can recognize the stress, and I can articulate what's causing it, and I have assuaged my conscious by fighting against it and now I am taking a similar leap of faith into a new life, just like before. I can't live like this, always waiting for the shoe to drop, slowly grinding my teeth down each night. Watching this thread with great interest.