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• Post #3074078

  I wrote a request story that took months to finish. The person who request it then haven't return to me after I sent the file. Been 2 weeks. I don't want to have a bad thought ... But probably he didn't want to pay. To be honest, I didn't plan to charge him with the fact that I needed long time to work on it. But well, yeah, let's see. I'm not so hopeful, but yeah ...

• Post #3074076

  @victor@tooters.org home sweet home hehe

• Post #3074075

  Part 1: I had a dream i had a male friend (i dont even saw his face) but i liked him. At one point we sat together with some other friends and i hold his hand. And i rub the back of his hand. I thought, i said to myself that it was quite dry. But i loved the fact that he held my other hand firmly. At one point i dont remember the convo was, but i think someone asked him if i fell in love with him. Then he said he didnt mind because no one ever loved him like i did. Holding his hand, he knew it

• Post #3074074

  (part 2) It's a shame that he knew and probably feeling 'tragic'. In real life i wont be that bold to hold someone's hand and if someone said what he said, i might already ran away. But in that dream i could feel myself having that sense for him. If not, i dont think i would remember that dream vividly. I felt sorry for whoever stranger i met and appeared in my dream. It sounds as if i had a fetish to hands 😅

• Post #3074073

  @victor@tooters.org this makes me chuckle

• Post #3074072

  Then i have to put almost everything as 'followers-only'. I have this paranoia that 'he' knows this account because i once shared it on twitch (and probably in twitter as well). 💀

• Post #3074071

  @victor@tooters.org my condolences. You are very lucky.

• Post #3074070

  I dreamed of Tan. He was just as young as when we met. Weird dream.

• Post #3074069

  I tried not to cry for a month (about him). Today I found Harry Styles' Daylight. Never know his songs (maybe I heard them in radios) but this song made me feel happy (before I understood the lyric. and even though it is like a bittersweet sad nostalgia, the whole mood was still a happy song). And I love James Corden's directing the MV. It was hilarious behind the scene and I could see Harry struggled not to laugh and those moments were put in to the final work.

• Post #3074068

  You know it is a good song if you barely understand the lyric through the audio (English is not my 1st language and strangely even though my english isnt so bad, when hearing a song I barely understand what they say). Also it must be a good song when u can remember the tone by just 2-3 times listening. I remember how I fall in love with Golden Hour (JUVE) and Joji's Glimpse of Us & Die for You. These songs directly were imprinted in my head.

• Post #3074067

  By accident I watched SpaceX live, 3 mins before launching the rocket (well, there was a delay then). I was almost in tears to hear people cheering.

• Post #3074066

  I decide to make this space is completely for myself. I dont need followers, nor i need to follow anyone. I want to freely write what i feel. I dont need any reader. I am probably a toxic person because in the end everybody left me. So i think it is good to leave me alone. Thank you for your kindness. I am sorry I can't treat you better. I wish you have a happy life. Bye

• Post #3074065

  I dreamed of Tony Leung and Andy Lau yesterday. I think, it wasnt the first time i dreamed of Tony Leung. Haha