I appreciate all the kind words and stuff guys. I really do. It's just a very odd time in my life right now and my brain wants to go back to the comfy things rather than deal with what's coming my way. To give you an idea, my job is likely going to be closing the office where I live. I'll still have my job since they are moving us all work from home permanently. But last year I took steps to not be permanent and to go back into the office because I needed to get out and I needed to be around people and now that's being taken away again. So I'm trying to find comfort in things that I used to. But my god am I being shown I am not worth the time by a few people I thought would be supportive. That's no one here who has reached out mind you. Just people in my life already who I thought I could rely on. But it is what it is and we keep moving forward. I'll figure stuff out. I always do...