I HAVE THIS TERRIBLE FEELING THAT FOR ALL OF THE PROBLEMS WE ALL HAVE THAT THIS TIME WILL BE REMEMBERED AS THE LAST OF THE GOOD TIMES THAT THINGS WILL BE GETTING MUCH WORSE FOR THE NEXT SEVERAL DECADES WITH BILLIONS DEAD THAT SEEMS LIKE THE TRAJECTORY I TRY TO LIVE IN A WORLD IN MY MIND WHERE I DON'T BELIEVE THAT AND MUCH OF THE TIME I DO BUT ON A DAY LIKE TODAY WHEN I HATE MY OWN EXISTENCE AS MUCH AS I DO FUCK I DON'T KNOW I DO NOT KNOW HOW ANY OF US ARE SUPPOSED TO GET UP TOMORROW MORNING AND DO ANY OF THIS AGAIN I HATE THIS SOCIETY I HATE IT HERE I LITERALLY DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO EXIST