so because I've been struggling a lot with balance, extreme fatigue, and motor skills, I wanted to see the root issue, esp since vitamins don't work at all for me. and since dad is a doctor, I trusted him to test my blood pressure to see where the root issue is, so we tested and I got everything normal (12 in blood pressure and 99 in the oxygen thingy idk abt this medical stuff), then he dismissed that it's just that I sit a lot in front of my laptop but it isn't true (I walk a lot outside by foot and I still feel drunk), then I was like "it might come from my mental health then, like stress." and he was like "if it's stress then just go smash your head against a wall". and yeah he also told mom that she's just paranoid as always when she shared that she feels that her heart gets so weak whenever she's anxious. so I then got mad at them and told them that it's dismissive and wrong to respond like that, and then he asked me how old I am, I responded with 20, he was like "well Einsteing at that age (insert whatever he did)" and "and you wonder why we infantilize you" so I stormed off. I wish I was way worse to the point I end up in the hospital so they can finally take me seriously because FUCK this shit. I'm the one who runs errands, I'm the one who always walks long distances by foot to go to college and my internship, and they have the guts to say that my condition is because I don't move !??? do I have to overexplain to keep them from what ?? headcanoning me or something ??? and when I tried to explain to my mom and talk to her in texts to explain to her how I didn't like how I was dismissed and explained my condition clearly, of course she chose to ignore me so here I am in bed laying down from dizziness as always. I don't wanna live like Sisyphus where I implode and physically hurt on the inside but my family thinks I'm just a normal person who moves tiredly on the outside. and mom still asks "why do you hate your dad ? you make him feel insecure 🥺" FUCK THIS HELL.