Post #772543

So of course having said I’ll be blathering on here I immediately disappear for a couple of days. Consistency is for wusses. I got home last night after nearly a fortnight at my beloved’s, and will be back and forth over the weekend because while I want to be there for her, the world has annoyingly failed to stop entirely and I have to sort this place out a bit because work is being done starting Tuesday and apparently things like accessing the bits they’re working on are important. Rude. And of course great timing on the part of my landlords, but they do these things in bulk and apparently it can’t be put off. As I say, annoyingly the world doesn’t stop, or even pause, and though most people are understanding up to a point some things just can’t be moved and have to keep grinding on. We’re in the aftershock now, that period after a horrible thing where you know intellectually that it’s happened but it doesn’t feel fully real yet. There are momentary wobbles, but mostly you’re functional if a little numb and plod along doing things that need doing, or just to distract yourself, and wonder when it’s going to really hit you; when you’re going to completely fall apart.