@AzulCrescent I always think about how much time I've lost and how I also didn't have the experiences that others had. That's just how it is if you're queer and awkward around people, like I am. The thing is though that I'm pretty much at a point where it doesn't hurt as much anymore since I now can surround myself with people who I can be comfortable being myself with. Because that was always the biggest issue for me, not that I was not attractive and too shy, but that I felt like I had to hide a part of myself in the past. I hope your pain about lost life experiences in the past diminishes and you can try to build some experiences in the present.