On the home front: The word "dysregulated" is becoming so useful to me. It neatly describes my reaction to such activities as filling out BIG SCARY OFFICIAL FORMS on the internet - I'm all like why are my hands suddenly shaking so much that I can barely keep the cursor still enough to click the buttons and all, and I've spent literally years filling out forms for my former career? To a certain extent this was always going on for me under the mask I'd unknowingly built over my personal mix of neurospicy/childhood PTSD baggage, but ever since retirement allowed me to pry off that mask, the hand-shakes, anxiety, avoidance behaviors, and all sorts of other dysregulation crap has been FIERCE. But I've finally tackled all the SCARY FORMS that had deadlines RIGHT NAO ... I still have something I need to look up to relieve some lingering anxiety but at least I can settle back into my favorite avoidance behaviors with a relatively clear conscience. (Fave avoidance behaviors do include getting lost in Tamriel via Elder Scrolls Online, so really only harmful to my posture and my pew pew pew hand. 😅)