Well #DEFCON34 is over with. Time to reflect on what I did (or didn’t do). This year honestly was different and I think it will take some time for me to process it. #defcon means a lot to me, over the years it went from something I did for work to something I did on my own to see my friends. This year was dedicated giving back and helping others. Helping out when needed, not when asked. I even made one of the CTFs and watched as people were working through challenges and puzzles I worked hard to create. I don’t know how to process it yet. It’s different. Im just capturing my feelings to reflect on later when things have calmed down for me. I gave a lot of myself this year and I’m exhausted.