Post #4412063

Staying wayyy to long not in one but two toxic relationships. I guess low self-esteem and fear of being alone will do that to a gal. I would also put “not transitioning earlier” but… ok I am not sure if this is a controversal/kinda woo-woo esoteric take but I honestly believe that if I had known earlier that I am trans, I would have died. Either because the region I grew up in being infested with Nazi scum would have gotten me or … well myself for knowing, not being able to do anything about it for years and years and seeing me turn into this grotesque form that should have never been. So yeah. I think my brain was protecting me from that. Unfortunately I plunged myself into that second toxic relationship, got married and then it was almost constant stress too, so apparently that didn’t feel safe for my brain either. Even tho looking back I could have done it, I think… well, what are ten years huh? (a lot, it’s a fucking lot and I am slightly salty)