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Last year, I was on a road trip, driving after the sun had set. I experienced a moment of eternity as I met the eyes of a doe as my car passed her on the road. The deer was running across the road, when my car cut her off from her path. As I passed her our eyes met, impossibly. I felt death's breath upon my neck, as the doe chose stillness in order to gift me with life. I think of her often, when death or fear linger in my presence. I think of how my understanding has shifted. My thoughts first told me that a deer had almost killed me. It took time for me to then understand that I hadn't almost been killed by a deer. I had it backwards - I had almost killed a deer. With time, I have come to understand that this doe looked into my soul and that life chose me that night. Over the following weeks, as I prepared for Winter Solstice, this deer's blessing began to manifest. My awakening experience at solstice was so heavily influenced, perhaps even inspired, by this doe on a road somewhere in Wyoming. The gifts she gave were many. I know now that I do not ever have to choose fear. And that life chooses me back. Thank you, sweet doe. For everything. 🦌🙏💜