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@bri7@social.treehouse.systems I'm curious about the male socialisation stories. I wonder what I might have "missed out" on. I don't think I experienced a typical "male" upbringing. Sure I was given boy's toys like cars and I played with them but I also played dolls with my sister. I did feel the social pressure to not like girly stuff so I knew to steer away from such things when I secretly liked them. I think this made me a very secretive person in general. My father was distant and didn't encourage me to engage in any masculine activities. I was never pushed to do any sports or anything like that. When I got in to computers around age 13 I got sucked in and hid myself from the world in my bedroom whenever I wasn't forced to go out for school or whatever. One experience that sticks in my mind is when I was in university, a friend practically dragged me in to a strip club and forced me in to getting a "private dance". The whole experience was really weird and uncomfortable and I felt really sorry for the young woman doing this "dance" for me. I felt completely disgusted with myself afterwards.