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I thought, how different it would be to be old. I had this idea in my head when I was young that I'd be going through life by moving between things, that interests would roll off of me and that which was once novel would have to make space for some other new thing. But it's not at all what happened. I'm about 15, and I come across this list of blue monospaced links. At that moment, I have no inclination toward... anything really, I'm a teen, videogames are like my whole life, I can barely understand English; and somehow, through all that mess of folders with names I didn't understand, I find myself saving a text file made up of these large squares of capitalized letters. Translation notes of the Liber Soyga. Among thousands of lines, my eye catches a passage where the angel Michael, addressing John Dee who puzzles over how to decipher these tables, says: "It is revealed by virtue and truth not power". I transcribe this line on the top of my school notebook in large letters, it becomes woven into everything I touch: "Et haec revelantur in virtute et veritate non Vi." It would take another 15 years before the 36 tables of the book were deciphered, and many more for me to even come across what they revealed, that the Liber Soyga is likely one of the earliest cellular automata. It's a coincidence, of course, but I can't help but see an inescapable inertia that runs back all the way to the start, and that nothing really rolls off of anyone after all. https://wiki.xxiivv.com/site/now