Post #3002596

This whole lack of information before made me very anxious and then I got blamed for the exact lack of knowledge that made me anxious. So now I'm still anxious because I feel like I'm going to get blamed for things I didn't even know were happening. I may be ignoring a trigger right now, this shit runs deep. I'm not okay, I have to make myself be okay soon and even just thinking about being there again on Saturday is making me tense up. They didn't really do anything other than not wanting to feel responsible for me wasting my time - which is an understandable instinct to have - but I feel like the trust I had started to build has just been ripped out for no reason. Welp. Probably won't seem nearly as dramatic after a solid night of sleep, I just need to get myself to do that now.