Post #2983724

Personal rant, disjointed thoughts that probably should stay inside of my head: Lately, I've been thinking a lot about how I'm denying myself my life's purpose by not working as an astronomer and just how much it makes me miserable on a daily basis. This is mostly because of personal reason. I cannot move to new place to work at some university and getting a full remote postdoc/assistant position is just plainly unrealistic. I could do science in my free time (that is in a low supply for months now) but will it be the same? Can I feel satisfied with it in a long run... Do I stay at my current datascience job that doesn't really engage me and there is a chance that it's consequences in a long run might be at odds with my personal morals, but on the other hand it allows me to pay my rent and buy food . Also sooner rather than later I will be forced to use LLM's (but this is really true for all of the IT jobs). Looking at current IT job market and it's requirements I am currently unemployable and lack a lot of skills and experience. And there is no guarantee that I will feel better in other position. Or do I pivot to something completely different, start from the bottom end risking unemployment/financial hardships/further dissatisfaction of my life. I don't really have financial cushion to experiment. Having your life-long passion being your job is great until you lose it and find yourself without purpose, then there comes mourning after what once was.