abandonment issues physically hurt. oh and makes you unable to get close to anyone BECAUSE it physically hurts. even the sweetest and friendliest people are scary to befriend because they might soon leave you and backstab you too, and it's even worse when you have favorites, I'd rather see everyone as equal ppl and never get attached ever !!! ughh I hate being unable to form friendships just because they make me go through multiple painful emotions like that, like imagine feeling massive happiness and extreme fear and paranoia at the same time. if I can't afford therapy then idk what to do ...........