Post #2811591

I'm nearly to the point of giving up on mutual aid. It's been weeks, and at the same times trolls seem to be running wild. I never felt like including myself in LGBTQ+ related posts because I'd feel like an impostor. There are many who desperately need help because they are, and I don't want to take away from them. I'm demiromantic, and yet all I've felt has been isolation. I guess spending 20 years not dating is part of that. I hate myself, always have, my family made sure to reinforce that hatred. My body already deformed is falling apart. I need help yet those intrusive destructive thoughts are crashing over me. A lifetime spent as an outsider, I don't know how to be part of a community.