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can someone help me figure this out, please??? genuinely, please help me. why am I alive??? why?????? if all I do is suffer.... if all I do is dream of a life I cannot ever have again.... if I already give 200% of myself every fucking day, but the world DEMANDS more.... what's the point of me being here?? seriously. I'm just a parasite of the world, I don't give anything, I just take.... and that's not my fault, but it is the truth.... what am I doing here?? why am I here??? I don't want to be here. I'm too tired. please just let me fucking rest.... I just woke up, and that sinking feeling appears again... "one more day to go through..... one more day of suffering..... but you can do this Jennifer...." until when???? I'm so fucking tired, I can't do this anymore. I have no one in life to support me, no friends, nothing. I live in this hellhole of a place, where I'm side-eyed by all of the 14k miserable people that live in this island with not even a fucking city. I'm so tired, I'm so done. there's nothing to do, there's no one to see, no new people to meet. nothing. there's nothing here. my life will keep being nothing. what is the purpose of living this shit? tell me. please help me realize. I cannot stand being here any longer, I'm done, I want out, please, I can't breathe, I can't do anything, I'M DESPERATE