Post #2540590

2026-05-14 22:01 UTC

People only ever seem to assume I'm competent when they're in distress and I'm calm because I always am. Which totally doesn't impact the way I think about others at all. I'm, apparently, considered a useless himbo until I'm their last resort in which case I know and can deal with absolutely everything. And if one more person tells me I need to work on my self-worth I will start screaming because my self-worth is basically irrelevant when everyone* else treats me like this. *not literally everyone, just a significant portion of the people I know

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@phoenixgreif@queer.group 2026-05-14 22:13

I love myself, I think I'm a very decent guy who deserves a decent life. I think I deserve respect. I just also think other people deserve support and that creates a dilemma if this is how I get treated. I'm not going to cut out everyone I know, that would be ridiculous and not helpful. This just won't change until I'm significantly older than I am now. I'm capable of a lot but that only ever gets recognised when others need it. And sometimes it isn't even mentioned then, just.. expected of me. Which feels violent and awful and I'd still fucking be okay with that if I wasn't getting robbed of all credit the second I'm no longer needed as a last resort. Couldn't have respect for the twenty-something year old unless we actively need him for something, huh? Couldn't view him as the fully fucking grown adult that he is unless it serves us. Cool. Thanks. I'll be over here resenting this reality tonight and fixing my mental state tomorrow because I'm an adult and that means I don't let myself stir in misery longer than I need to in order to let my brain process and feel the emotions it needs to.

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