Borderline Rule

cross-posted from: lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/42292983 Maybe I’m a Saint [OC] Horrible Horrible, I am, Burning all I touch, Debt unpayable I’m a demon, a wretch, And it’s time I left, Left, left for good, The only good I can do Gone for the last time, This world will be freed Darling, Darling love, Don’t try to stop me I’ve made up my mind I’m done pretending I’m done destroying But darling, You pretend as you speak You act as if your name, Shall be written into the books, As one to be shunned, By all around the world And it’s true Love, Let me go You never let others go Because I’m selfish I’m wretched Because you need to be held Because I need to be pushed Pushed away at once Hear me, love Speak not of yourself as such, For you are a saint, A genuine saint, Standing there for others, When few stood for you And listen close, love, For I am you No, I’m not I’m the bare minimum, maybe, But I’ve fucked up too much Failure is all I craft Others are all sophisticated, And I’m a cacophony You’ve simply forgotten, darling A cacophony of pain, you are, And I deserve it And what of others? I’m not a human I’m a thing A thing that hurts You’re a thing that’s been hurt I deserve it How many times do I have to say None, None at all, love, For you are deserving of love, I shall cherish you forever Maybe you’re a liar Maybe I’m a fighter Maybe you fight for the wrong things Maybe I fight for the right things There’s no right in me Then what of every time, You held someone? You fought for someone? The bare minimum You say that, But what of every time Someone gave up on you? Gave up for a reason Every time you went above and beyond? Every time you pulled someone from the brink? Every time you stopped others from splitting? Every time you simply listened? Minimum Maximum, my love, You’ve given it your all So much of your all, You’ve forgotten yourself Stop I will not I fill fight for you as hard as you have, For love, listen, Listen, I am you Stop it You’ve run off far, love, A poor, scared thing, Devoted to others, Like nothing I’ve seen You’re a fighter, A warrior, A light in the dark You’ve just made mistakes, Just as anyone would LET ME GO!! If you wish to be let go, Why do you still listen? Please… Darling love You’ve pushed so hard, It’s all you know Now, I believe, It’s time you knew love Come back to me, and be held … Then I shall come to you, I’ll try as hard, As you have for others, For listen, I am you …Sorry Just join me, love …Maybe I’m a saint, A genuine saint, A light in the dark, That I never had, Because I spread my light around, Devoted it to others, Ones who would never, Ever give it back And I’ve tried, and I’ve fought, But they’d always push away And maybe that’s okay, There’s always next time Always next time, When I listen to myself And I’m sorry, so sorry, For pushing myself away Never again – Mallory/Marloe