Post #2138572

so i've started the process of hard forking sillyz. i haven't had a real job in two and a half years. sillyz was reckless and scary and fun and i really did become a clown, a very good thing. i made a lot of friends. i got connected to san francisco's comedy scene, even if i've been on hiatus the past year trying to make sillyz be serious. i connected with the underground technology scene where computers are more art than science and i became a musician. the common thread in who i've become is improvisation. i've become a better listener in all aspects of my life, which has made be more comfortable in who i am and how i communicate. if i ever had one goal, it was to insulate sillyz so that it just _would be_ and that no one could ever take it away from us. that's accomplished. sillyz, just is, whether anyone likes it or not, we all have it, whether we know it or not. if i ever had a second goal, it would be to make it so that i can make a living off the core engine instead of the core engine of some arbitrary technical overlord. this actually seems like it might pan out this year. i'll still be playing with and poking around on sillyz, but i'll be talking about it less as my comedy notebook super computer and more vaguely in terms of whatever someone willing to pay me wants to hear it is. that'll all be on not here though-- marketing boring. for everyone that's followed along on my antics so far-- thanks. and the inside joke is just beginning. whatever comes next, even if i don't say it explicitly, silly will be and has always been running the whole show.