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as you may know, i have a lot of dreams about living in weird houses. last night i dreamed that i was in a huge, weird mansion/castle (someone else's - not something i would build). it had a huge medieval-style central hall with like...shields and weapons going up the walls all the way to the ceiling, which was maybe 40 feet high. it was all stone and in the style of one of those people who's obsessed with castles. i had some people over and as we were entering, i showed them the main hall (which in the dream, i was confused about as well lol), and some people came out of the basement (which i didn't even know existed). they were squatting down there and i told them "it's ok, you can come up." basically, it seemed like someone else had built this house, left it, then it was empty for a while, these folks moved in, and then i was there. i had a tiny, cozy apartment on the top floor. it was so tiny that as i was showing my friends around, we all had to squeeze through the hallway, etc. but, interestingly, when i was showing it to them, there was a whole closet that i discovered that i hadn't been using. so i was showing my friends around, the squatters were hanging out too and charging up their phones, and i was telling my friends "yea, it's great, oh, except there are snakes that sometimes come out of the ceiling." and indeed, some brown snakes were hanging down out of the ceiling, right above the bed. my friends were like OMG and started backing away. i thought "the snakes seem ok, they haven't hurt me." but then a whole load of snakes were poking out and dropping down lower and lower to the point where they could get at me while i was in bed. then i thought "ok, i guess that is pretty bad. i'll move my bed." 😅 also, there was a huge partially-built/partially-destroyed house on the property. i could see it from the window of my tiny apartment. it was a brick house...it looked like chunks had been taken out of it. as i was looking at it, a youtube video was playing in the background about what a pain it was if you bought a lot with a half-built/half-destroyed house. it was talking about how difficult it would be to find a builder who would want to work on it, how complicated it could be to fix, how it's not clear whether it should be torn down or fixed up, and how both options were potentially extremely expensive, and how really, you couldn't live in a house like that. i remember looking out the window at that other house, knowing that it was on my property, my problem, and thinking "yea, this video is describing my issue exactly." and i even told my friends "you know, i often have dreams about weird houses and partially-built/partially-destroyed houses" 😆 so that was basically it. i *do* often have dreams about weird houses and partially-built/partially-destroyed houses. places where some of the rooms are ok, but then there's a room that's unlivable with a huge hole in the roof or the wall. i *have* lived in a lot of weird houses, including houses where part of it was livable and part wasn't. some might even say i live in such a place now lol. so it's definitely related to ongoing problems with my living situation. but also, i think that often my house dreams have the house as a metaphor for my mind, and house as a metaphor for my life in general. i guess it's a good sign that in this dream, at least i had a cozy apartment as part of this deal! maybe it's like, "there's a small safe space in your mind, even if the rest is kind of destroyed/incomplete/in disarray, and not really livable." granted, the safe space did have snakes that would randomly come out of the ceiling over my bed, which is not great, but also, no ghosts in any of the rooms this time! that's definitely a step up. #dreams #CPTSD #offgrid