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Although I submit to vanishingly few people, I'm a pretty solid switch. I don't give what I won't or haven't taken, but it's interesting how different flavours of the same act work for me as top and bottom. I get incredibly hard when I top for behavioural modification and control. I want to addict you to your place beneath me. I want the begging to feel real. I desire to feel your need and the things that you'll willingly give up to me, become for me (and for you?) in order to fulfil it. I like receiving that, too, but the twist I enjoy is a sense of making a sacrifice (or forced... within contexts); of being taken apart; dismantled and stripped down to raw sensation; or of taking on a mask or shape that we were previously forced or coerced into, but this time for you. (That latter one was tied to some triggers I didn't like having exposed to others for long while... Stone top things, right?) There's also something in here that really enjoys giving itself over to another completely and very sincerely, which honestly is a pretty recent discovery, which I think ties into the sacrifice/for You instinct, but it's unusual for me to love someone that much in these ways, so it's rather novel still. Posting before I accidentally spill coffee on this and delete it.